Run, Lola, Run

I'm moving!!

2011-07-29T10:37:00.000-07:00

Hey girls!!! I just moved to Chicago so it seemed fit that i moved from this blog too!!!

Please follow me to:

http://lola-runs-chicago.blogspot.com/

and join me in my Chicago adventure!!! :D:D

One of each

2011-05-24T11:24:00.000-07:00

I was reading this amazing blog, I'm boy crazy, and I came up with this post about guys you should date in this life time!! Ithought it would be fun to post it and mark down which ones I have actually dated... sounds like fun? although, don't be fooled, some of the guys I've dated can fit into more than one category and that's why there are so many guys mark down!! I'm not that much of a slut hahaha
I'm going to add a few of my own, some guys I'd like to date in this life time!

1. a fireman.
2. a laker.
3. a guy with a big private.
4. a top tier rapper.
5. a front man.

~~6. a drummer.~~

7. a mechanic.
8. a really sexy dumb guy with a tan who could be mistaken for a cowboy.
9. a movie star.

~~10. a nerd.~~

11. a man (young OR old) with salt and pepper hair.
12. an Asian guy with long hair who defies every stereotype.
~~13. a really funny guy.~~
14. a super femme straight guy.
15. a broody writer.

~~16. an 18 year old.~~

~~17. a 22yr old.~~

18. a guy who looks like a sexy vampire.
19. a painter.
20. a lawyer.
21. a guy with a motorcycle.
22. a guy with a vespa.
23. a guy with a cleft palette.

~~24. a guy who loves his mom.~~

~~25. a chef. but only for a brief period, so the time to lose the weight you’ve gained before you’re on to the next guy is minimal.~~

26. A guy who drives a prius.
27. a guy who drives a range rover.
28. a guy who has a driver.
29. a skateboarder (I.E. a guy who drives a skateboard) with abs of steal.
30. a guy with a neck tattoo.

31. a romantic.

~~32. a guy with a lisp.~~
~~33. a guy who doesn’t wear deodorant or cologne.~~

~~34. a guy who loves you.~~

~~35. a guy you don’t love, but the sex is amazing.~~
36. the owner of a major business/company.
37. a guy with a cat.
38. a guy with a dog.
39. a guy who eats healthy.
40. a surfer with shoulder length sun bleached blond hair.
41. Lenny kravitz.
42. a guy named: max, Simon, jasper, Wes, roman, Nate, Spencer, or Felix.
43. a guy with dread locks.
44. a guy who would NEVER give up coffee, cuz he LOVES it/knows it’s so great!
45. a guy who wears, or just LOOKS like he’s wearing eyeliner.
46. a guy with a cool/great family that you really like, who really like you too.
47. an english guy.
48. a french guy. Only so you can learn the language while sexxxing and laying around in bed between kisses.
49. a red head.

~~50. an older man.~~

~~51. a younger man~~.

52. a buddhist or someone really spiritual
53. a bass player

~~54. the leader of a rock band~~

55. the leader of a FAMOUS rock band
56. Devendra Banhart, Michael Cera, James Franco, Caleb Followill, Jason Mraz or Jesse Eisenberg.
57. A tattoo artist.
58. an activist.
59. a photographer
60. a hipster

Actually, I'm guessing I'm pretty far behind hahahaha don't worry, i'll get to it!! :) Copy it up and do your own list, I dare you! :D

I'm worried

2011-05-19T10:14:00.001-07:00

I'm kind of worried, I think I might have arthritis.

That's it.

Monster Ball 2011

2011-05-10T14:28:00.000-07:00

Honeypies, I went to the Monster Ball in Guadalajara this past may 3rd, 2011.

IT FUCKING CHANGED MY LIFE.

That its all.

So sad :(

2011-04-27T23:06:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry for neglecting this blog like this!!!! Is just that my cousin, Ale, who's always been like a little sister for me, moved away to Chicago today :( I've been trying to spend as much time with her as possible so blogging has taken a second place!!

I'm so so sad,I love this girl so much, she's my sister, cousin, best friend :/ I'm going to miss her so much!!1 I made her a beautiful scrapbook with pics of us, I hope it makes her happy!!!

Also, I have some exiting news!! First of all, I'm almost sure I'll be getting my driving license on Friday, finally!!!! :D INDEPENDENCE, here I come hahaha

Second, I'm going to the beach on Saturday!!!! I'm so fucking excited!!!!! I just hope I don't get my fucking period :S:S:S my boobs are starting to hurt so I'm guessing is close, ughhh please no! (TMI???)
It's very triggering to go on a crash diet right now, not going to lie, I have wanted to starve myself since I knew about the trip, but I'm resisting the urge =S And feeling all bloated, ugh!!! But I'm determined to make the most out of this trip! It was totally unexpected and I want to have a lot of fun!! I'll be going with my friends (2 guys and 2 girls), and will be sharing a room. Awkward, I know, but budget is very tight!

from the last time I went, in 2009

Third, not so exciting news, I went to get new lenses and the news are I'm almost legally blind =S=S pffffff....I'll just be waitingfor the right time and maybe get laysik surgery (did I spelled that right?) I chose some pretty glasses but I still look geeky like someone out of the Big Bang Theory

I chose Ray Bans. I look like a hipster wannabe,

And fourth... I went out with another guy!!! hahahahaha after obsessing over this guy I had a few dates with, since January, finally I went out with someone else. It was pretty cool, we listened to music and had some beers. Good times! :) I want to take itslow and not make up things in my head.

That's it ladies, my eyes hurt so much from crying!!! I hope you are having a wonderful spring break, lots of hugs!!! :)

Dana, baby, I haven't forget your package and I'll send it as soon as possible :)

Giveaway Winner!!!

2011-04-13T12:15:00.000-07:00

Hey Girls!!!
The contest is over :( and sadly I didn't win, but I want to thank all 7 of you who entered my Giveaway :)!

Using Random.Org , I chose a number and the Winner is DANA!!!

Please e-mail me your adress hun and you'll get the bag of goodies ! :)

Nutella crisis

2011-03-31T17:39:00.000-07:00

I just ate half a jar of nutella!!!!!! i smeared it on bread, on cookies, and even on a pop sicle!! It's been my first binge in a looooooooooooooong time :/ damn :(

Also to let you know that the Giveaway it's still open!!!! I'm extending the deadline since I must be the most unpopular blogger in the world and only one person entered hahahaha but please, if you want to win some delicious goodies, enter the giveaway (same rules and all) and I'll include a jar orf nutella or something :O

Giveaway!! mexican goodies:coffee,chocolate,candies

2011-03-21T12:57:00.000-07:00

Hey girls!!! I've been really away from the computer and I'm sorry!! i'm such a terrible blogger I know :(.
A lot of things have happened lately... Do you remember the other day I was talking about how the violence and insecurity was keeping everybody in their homes, and how unfair it was because anyone could die from sickness or accident or whatever? Well, apparently it's so truth :( a very dear friend of my best friend passed away last sunday :( she lost her battle with cancer. She was a year younger than me. It was so sad and all I could do was try to be strong for my friend but it's so hard. It has deeply affected me :( I've never thought she would die.. I knew she was sick but I expected some kind of miracle healing or omething.. it's really shaken me up to the core.. everything I believe in... I really don't know what to believe in anymore, I'm very depressed...
And yesterday, my sister's husband had a motorcycle accident. He crashed against some rocks and flew several meters .. He is okay, he broke his coxis and a hand and injured his leg. he also might have some internal damage, but he's still in the hospital and it's too soon to know... I'm very scared :(

Anyway, life must go on!! On to other subjects... Remember the Contest I'm participating in??? Well, I wanted to make a giveaway!!!!!

I'm giving away a delicious bag of mexican goodies:

- Horchata (rice-milk beverage)

- Palanquetas (nuts, seeds and fruits bars)

peanut and amaranth palanquetas

sesame seeds and peanuts palanquetas

- Piloncillo (raw sugar in bar form)

- Natural dark chocolate

a cup of hot chocolate made with thebest chocolate ever!

- Coffee (fair trade, organic coffee from Oaxaca, the best coffee in the world I assure you!!!)

-Assortment of mexican candies: cocadas (coconut bars), jamoncillo (milk fudge), caramelized sweet potatoes and squash.

coconut bars

Every item on the goodie-bag is 100% natural, hand-made, conservative free, and vegan (except for the milk fudge)!!

I'd really love to add a bottle of tequila but I don't know if that's legal hahahahaha

You can enter the Giveaway 3 different ways, and you can enter 3 times!!(please leave a different comment for each entry)

1) Link back to the giveaway on your blog and leave a comment telling me you did.
2) Post the video or link to my video on your blog and leave a comment telling me you did.
3) Tweet both the Giveaway and the Video and leave a comment telling me you did!

Hope you guys enter the Giveaway, I promess you will love the gifts!!! :) Giveaway closes on March 27th and I'll be announcing the winners on the 28th!!

Pray for Japan

2011-03-12T15:45:00.000-08:00

This is all very horrible...Please pray for Japan... :(

I have decided to follow Alex's lead and give yp bread and fried things for Lent!! Here in Mexico is traditional to give up red meat, but I don't eat red meat so what's the point? There's no sacrifice in it!! So I'm giving up what I like the most: bread and fried things...Goodbye whole wheat buns and vegetable tempura for 40 days!!!

How are you ladies doing? Ready for an awesome weekend?

I'm obsessed with Mila Kunis for W magazine

Capirotada:Traditional Mexican Lent Dessert

2011-03-09T19:09:00.000-08:00

Today is Ash Wednesday, and if you were raised in this tradition you know today is the beginning of Lent!! I was raised catholic, and even if I'm buddhist now, more than a spiritual thing, I love Lent because all the family gathers in the same house and we eat really yummy food!!

Traditional dishes for Lent in my Grandma's house are chuales (corn soup), lentils (is lent, after all!), fish (served with a delicious cucumber relish), nopales with red chile sauce, bread soup, chiles rellenos (stuffed green chiles with egg batter), a ton of different salads, pipian (a delicious sauce made with red chile and pumpkin seeds, I know this would be a hit in the blog world!!!), torrejas (really similar to french toast), fish stew, shrimp burgers, enchiladas, etc. They also make a very good pumpkin water, I'll try to get the recipe too!
But the star of the show is desert, and my grandma made the best CAPIROTADA ever!! Also called "migas" in some places, capirotada is a really sweet bread pudding, sweetened with piloncillo, that it's basically a bar of raw brown sugar! And today I'm going to give you the recipe :D

Capirotada (Migas) de Cuaresma

Traditional Mexican Lent Dessert: Capirotada

Ingredients:

4 panes de agua or bolillos, sliced (2 french baguettes will do just fine)
2 bars of piloncillo (piloncillo is really crucial, but if you can't find it anywhere, substitute for 2 cups of brown sugar)
1/2 cup of peeled peanuts (or your preferred nut)
1/2 cup of raisins
1 cup of grated cheese (please, try to get mexican cheese (panela, añejo, menonita, chihuahua, etc.), if you can't find anything, don't use the horrible yellow kind, I don't know the name but if it's yellow DON'T USE IT)
1 cinnamon stick
Sprinkles!!

How-to:

1) First you need to make a syrup with the piloncillo and the cinnamon. Boil them in some water until you have a nice, medium-thick syrup. Remove from heat.

Boil the piloncillo with the cinnamon!

2) Toast the bread slices until they are brown and crunchy!! Use your method of choice.
3) In a different pan, put a layer of bread, spread some cheese on top, some peanuts and drizzle some syrup.
Then, another layer of bread-cheese-nuts-syrup. Do this layers until you finish all the ingredients.
4) Bake for an hour at 150°C or until the bread is very soft.
5) Some people like to add some fresh fruit slices on top (mostly banana, papaya and guava). My grandmother didn't add fruit, just a lot of sprinkles on top!!!

some people like to add fruit and marshmallows

close-up of the goodness!!!

There you go guys, I really hope you try to make it and enjoy it!!!!

P.S. By the way, thank you SO MUCH for your concerned comments in my last post. Things really suck at my city right now (apparently, we are #14 most dangerous city in the whole fucking world), but it's not as bad as it sounds. Mostly, if you keep yourself informed about what places to avoid (via Twitter, because the TV news are always late xD), you can be safe!!! What bothers me the most it's the curfew xD it sucks not to be able to go out at night because you don't know what might happen!!!! I think that all the younger people are taking a "fuck it" attitude about the whole thing, and I guess it's okay! You might fall in the shower tomorrow and die and all your precautions might be wasted. I really hope the situation gets better soon anyway. This used to be a very cool town, not too small but still had that "small town" vibe and you could walk the streets at night alone and everything. You can still do it in some days. Sigh. Oh well. I really do hope things go back to normal :(

I'm sorry

2011-03-04T16:17:00.001-08:00

I'msorry for being such a horrible blogger!!! first i don't post a lot and now it'sanother whiny post!!!
But I'm just a bit sad:( A new violence-wave is keeping everybody in their homes. Gunshots and ambulances are heard 24/7
This sucks.

I'm so emotionally drained

2011-03-01T14:56:00.000-08:00

I don't know about you but I love that today is March 1st!!! I love the feeling of having a fresh new month to start!!! Like passing the page....Last week was so emotionally draining to say the least... first, one of my best friends moved. And then my cousin moved too :( she's moving to Chicago for ever and ever :( I hope to go on summer but it seems so far away!!!!
I also got my TOEFL exam on thursday.. it was so stressing!!! But I did it in the hopes that if I'm certified bilingual I can snatch a job in Chicago easier :P
And then the guy stuff and everything :/ it sucks :/ I really have bad luck in love hahahahaha I might go to a casino and gamble the heck out of my finances hahaha
And then I sold two paintings and then I finished all the money in stupid things and now I'm left with nothing hahahahaha
and on saturday i went out and one of my friends was being such a downer and depressed us all!!!!I was wearing a cute outfit anyway :P

flowy top + faux-leather jacket + black skinny jeans

love this top! the combination of white+blue+gold

huge earrings

classic emo-shot hahah

By the way girls, I was so bored yesterday I made a formspring!!! ask me anything HERE

EXPECT A GIVEAWAY SOON!!! What are some mexican-goodies you are dying to try? maybe some piloncillo? tamarindo? horchata? chocolate? coffee?

French exams and guy issues AGAIN!

2011-02-26T17:00:00.000-08:00

I'm so happy because last saturday I made my first French exam in this course and I got a 100!!! :) it's so cool, I had problems with the oral part but they set me up with a classmate that really knows how to speak French and he helped me a lot with my accent :) Today I borrowed a CD (Carla Bruni's Quelqu'un m'a dit) and a movie (Le Science des Rêves of Michael Godry, with mexican hottie Gael Garcia, and my idol Charlotte Gainsbourg thank you very much :P) and I think that will really help me with my french accent and fluity.

Sorry I've been MIA!! My computer was not ready until yesterday!!!! I was so impatient! Apparently when my laptop fell down, the AC system broke and the hard disc burned!! and none of my information could be recovered :( so sad :/ I had all my pics on facebook already anyway but it's still sad, I also had a lot of exercise videos that are a FREAKING NIGHTMARE to download because they take forever! But I got to see the hard disc it's so cool!!! like something out of TRON definitely hahahaha I wanted to dive in in a cool motorcycle hahaha

I'm sorry to bore you with my technology woes, and to bore you even further... hehe I've got guy issues AGAIN!!! Oh my god, I'm so obsessed with this guy and he's like so OVER me and I don't know why :( last Sunday he was drunk-texting me (romantic) and now he completely ignores me . Is that fair? guys are so stupid!!!!

Have you seen Radiohead's new video Lotus Flower?? I love it!!!!!! Radiohead's new music has been much needed for a long time!!!

And in other news... Please guys, I need help to get VIEWS on my video!!!! (for the trip to Panama)! Please click, click, click HERE! :P I'm also thinking about making a Giveaway to get a ton of views, what do you think? Good Idea or Bad Idea?Would you be interested in winning a bag full of mexican goodies?? (mexican candy is the best there is!!! just saying :P)

Hey girls!!

2011-02-20T23:01:00.000-08:00

Hey girls, how you've been?? I've been uncomunicated from the world because I dropped my laptop to the floor and of course it crashed :( im so freaking clumsy :/
Things have been good although the boy I'm dating drives me really nuts, I'm starting to think he's just not that into me :S which really sucks because I am into him :/
Today was my cousin's bday party! He turned ten and he is such a fan of Lady Gaga, I bought him the remix CD (Born this Way is not on sale yet, is it?), and I made him a collage of pics of us and Gaga! hehe he loved it!!!

Anyway, guess what?? I got in a contest to be an Intern in Panama, and I had to make a video and the video that gets more views is going to win!! Please help me out by checking it out HERE!
I didn't make an "accent video" but here's your chance to hear me talk! Please don't laugh xD

Help me out by passing it along!!! pretty please? :)

Things I'm loving this week:

Boba Tea!

Radiohead's new album!!! OMG I've waited for so long!

Things I Love Sunday ♥

2011-02-13T11:48:00.000-08:00

1) Dressing like Peaches Geldof to go out on saturday,

2)Going out on said killer outfit and 6 inch heels and running into my shortie ex-boyfriend.

3)..and into a lot of old friends :)

4)Having a blast with my grrrrls!

5)Vodka sodas

6)Washing the dishes listening to VH1 classic.

7)Sex-ting (that's sexy-texting)

8) NYLON with Leighton Meester on the cover

9)Selling not 1, not 2, but 3 paintings!!!!

10)Dreamcatchers.

11) Blue nail-polish.

12) Thinking of summer ;)

13)Giving my friends valentine cards I made myself!

14) Georgia May Jagger and Charlotte Free

15) Tristan Prettyman and Jason Mraz :)

Brownies...and stress

2011-02-09T22:17:00.000-08:00

I have to confess... I've been stressing out because I'm having too much fun. In regards to my eating that is. I've been going out with my friends, on dates, and today I even made a brownie with my cousin and ate a lot of brownie batter !!! :S it was fun and it was delicious! but I feel like I'm indulging too much every day =S every day I stress out about eating too much foods that used to be off-limits for me: brownies, cake, cookies. I feel good about this because nothing is prohibited for me anymore, but I feel scared about gaining weight.

But... anyway...on to the brownies! Today I made Salted Fudge Brownies from Eat Live Run .
We were very afraid to add the salt... hesitating..that maybe we were going to ruin perfectly good brownie batter... but guess what, we didn't!!! The brownies were so perfectly fudge-y and delicious!! You could really taste the salt on the crust of the brownie, but surprisingly that was so weirdly...addictive? I don't know any other way to describe it!!!

making brownies is not the same...

if you don't lick the spoon!

2011-02-07T22:11:00.000-08:00

How to know if it was a good day?

If my legs are so sore from running or dancing...

If I ate or drink something green, fresh and delicious...

...and also something absolutely decadent, rich and delicious!

If I have paint all over my hands (and hair, and jeans!)

if I have a slight buzz from a lot of caffeine..

And if I go to sleep with a goofy smile on my face :)

Not too shabby for a monday! :)

Dazzed and Confused

2011-02-06T21:24:00.000-08:00

Girls!!! I have Guys Issues!!! I hate that!!!!!!!!
Let me recap a bit.... I'm going out with this guy I've told you about before... but I'm really confused because I don't really know if we are dating or just "hanging out". And I don't know why that matters anyway? But it's just that I've been hurt so many times in the past and I'd really love to know the floor I'm stepping on!!!! I don't want to get all excited about something that may not happen anyway, you know? And, anyway, I don't even know what i'd like it to happen. Like, what if we start dating seriously and then I go away? Because that may be in the cards for me this year, you know? who knows!!!! gosh this is really taking so much energy hahahaha I don't know why I get so stressed out about guys! Remember the last time I was going out with someone and then he went back t his Norwegian girlfriend and I was all heartbroken and shit? Oh my god!!!
And this guy is like young and shy and kind of a geek (read: totally different of the type of guys I'm used to dating) but I'm excited and at the same time I don't want to be excited, because I don't want to lose control of the situation, meaning I don't want to be more attracted to him than he is to me!!!
I'll just let everything flow naturally and thanks for reading my little rant!! hehe I just needed to vent!

Speaking of other things :) today i made a delicious lunch!!!! Goat cheese-stuffed mushrooms! :) here's a photo recipe!

First, you need really soft goat cheese (you can sub with cream cheese if you like)

Mix it with some red-pepper jelly, tomato paste, herbs and spices if you like

Add a few drops of Tabasco for a little extra kick ;)

Wash your mushrooms and let them dry perfectly


Cut the stems and scoop everything out with a little spoon like that one :P

Fill your mushroom caps with the cheese mixture and microwave for about 25 seconds

Put them in the grill to brown the a little and ENJOY!

Hope you guys like it!!

How was your weekend? Tomorrow i'll post my weekend re-cap!!! Have a wonderful week!

This.Is.It

2011-02-06T00:27:00.000-08:00

How can I "detox" when there is this in the world?

"café vienés"

also known as "espresso with panna"

close.up. I DIE

this.is.it

Day 9: a picture of a person who has gotten you through the most

2011-02-03T12:01:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!! Thanks for all your lovely comments, yes I agree with you, my niece and I are soooo adorable. Okay, she is ;) I love her to dead and I'm glad to say she loves me back hehehe my cousin says she always wants to talk to me when she grabs her toy-phone and at school she always makes me drawings and stuff! She's a very intelligent little girl.

Anyway, I am feeling better from my stomach thing. I think the culprit was some paella I ate that probably was bad. Is very sad because I love paella :(
And on to the 30 day challenge!!! Day 9 is a pic of someonewho has gotten you through the most:

Le parents!

Le sister

Ma famille! Without a doubt, the 3 persons who have gotten me through the most are my parents and my sister! Sometimes we fight, like in every family, and sometimes it has been rough; I've had issues with my parents, but ultimately that made me a better person. I would never change that for the world! Me and my sister have always been very closed, when she got married I was very depressed because I felt so lonely, I always told everything to her.
I remember when I broke up with my last boyfriend, I came home crying and they all went and hugged me so tight! That felt so good, i felt like I was falling and they held me tight and didn't let go. I've never been so depressed like that time, and then I got sick again and got even more depressed, and they've always been there for me!!
Do you know my father woke up EVERY SINGLE MORNING to make me breakfast, brought me all my shit-load of pills and drive me to school, even through college? He's a rockstar daddy! My health has always been his top priority and even though that's one of the reasons why we fight so much, I love him to dead for doing that.
My mom can be over protective but I adore her! We used to go running together everyday and that brought us so much closer! I can talk to her about ANYTHING. Even sex. hahahah
In conclusion, I LOVE MY FAMILY and they are the people who have gone with me THROUGH HELL AND BACK ;)

Today I might go out with the boy again (L)(L) **excitement!**

Day 8: a picture that makes you laugh

2011-02-01T13:17:00.000-08:00

SURPRISED LOOKS!

KISS!

showing my niece all the "Myspace poses"

WITH MY GLASSES ON HEHE

now that's what I call "man boobs"

hehehe

I got a stomachbug or something. I don't feel good at all. I won't go into details because you might be eating or sumthing hehe let's just say I've been drinking gatorade. A ton of it. Detox will have to wait!

Day 7:A picture of your most treasured item and day 2 of the Deox

2011-01-29T23:09:00.000-08:00

Day 7: your most treasured item. Well I couldn't really choose a favorite item because at first I thought MYLAPTOP!!! and then I thought how boring would that be hehehe because we all know that all bloggers witll say that! so I guess my second favorite item is my faux-leather jacket!! I have NO STYLE whatsoever so I think that this jacket is really what makes most of my outfits!

LIVER CLEANSE DAY 2: So second day of the supposed cleanse.i have to confess girls I was BAD. First, the guy i told you about called me last night and said he had been working and that's why he hasn't called me and that if we could go grab a cup of coffee later. I said yes =s so we went and I had a cinnamon cappuccino. And then later tonigh I went to a friend's house and we had pizza!!! And it was stuffed-crust veggie pizza by the way! HOLY YUM!!!!
Let me tell you something, NEVER START A DETOX ON A WEEKEND. It sucks. You'll cheat. You'll wish you didn't. Anyway, I had fun and I also had 3 glasses of chlorophyll and I haven't smoked or drinked so I guess tomorrow is Day 3!!!! Cut the crap out of course, but I'm still on track. !!

But back to the important stuff! The date!!! Well it went really well. I arrived 30 minutes late on purpose (because he kept me waiting for his call *insert evil laugh*!) but when I got there he was comfortably sitting playing with his Iphone and I came up and asked him, "hey you've been waiting for long?" and he was like "oh I don't know, haven't checked the clock" So I guess he didn't even notice ?? But anyway, we went and got coffee to go, and we walked and talked and it was very cool. He makes me laugh even though he's kind of shy. We went to a little street-market where they had all those weird puzzles and like wooden rubick cubes and we spend like an hour trying to solve one of the puzzles. They were hard as sh*t let me tell you. It was fun!!!!
Then when I was at my friend's house he texted me and said if I wanted to go see "The Green Hornet" with him and I said yes, and he asked me what day was right for me and I said wednesday? and he said how about monday, because I don't have to work on mondays and I said let me check if monday is right for me I'll tell you tomorrow. And that was that. I'm not really doing anything on monday (since I'm unemployed and all xD), but I just said that to play hard to get. Agh dating is hard job and I forgot how to do it xD

Tomorrow is a new day and a new chance to eat CLEAN! LIVER DETOX HERE I GO FOR GOOD!!!

Just having some fun on the cleanse...NOT

2011-01-28T20:13:00.000-08:00

Quick update on Day1 of the liver cleanse:

Breakfast: Chlorophyll water upon waking up. Banana - spinach -flax - spoy milk smoothie. Pretty good, except for the fact that my mom came home with a huge bday cake. Is nobodys bday so why the cake? Just to tempt me!!! I don't want to be so harsh on myself so I grab a spoonful of icing and sandwich it between to rice cakes hehe balance people!! balance!

Lunch: Yummy burrito (on corn tortilla) made with beans, lettuce, salsa and guacamole.

Afternoon snack: Apple and cinnamon tea with soy milk.

Dinner: Rice and beans (complete protein right there!). Steamed veggies. Feeling very cuban, baby!!!

So that's that. Day 1. I'm going to have another glass of chlorophyll before bed. Right now my stomach is not feeling very good. I don't think it's from the "cleanse" because really, I didn't had anything different from any other day!! I think I'll have to up my veggie intake tomorrow and maybe have a cleansing juice or something too. I found a list of Dr. Junger "elimination foods" but I haven't check it up yet. I'll do and post it tomorrow!!

Today sucked because I waited for a call ALL DAY. It makes me feel really bad when a guy doesn't call me. It's not even that I like him all that much (the guy I told you about, that I went on a "date" with), but the fact that I feel he's got some kind of POWER over me because I'm waiting for his call!! He can suck it. I'm done with it.!!!!
How was your day sweet peas?? (I'm so corny xD) I have french class tomorrow and haven't done homework. Of course. I had a week to do it and I left it to the last minute!! I thrive underpressure (NOT) .

Liver Detox

2011-01-27T22:34:00.000-08:00

All this weekends are catching up on me... I've been going out non-stop and with going out of course there is A LOT OF DRINKING INVOLVED. I probably shouldn't do it since I've been having liver problems, which sucks, because I feel like I'm very young to be having this kind of issues on top of my regular issues.
I googled Liver Issues Symtomps and this is what came up, and I have ALL of them!!! =S

Sluggish metabolism.
Protuberant abdomen (pot belly).
Cellulite.
Inability to lose weight even while dieting.
Indigestion.
Reflux.
Intolerance to fatty foods.
Intolerance to alcohol.
Abdominal bloating.
Constipation.
Irritable bowel syndrome.
Pain over the liver - (upper right corner of abdomen & lower right rib cage).
Craving for sugar.
Depression.
Mood changes such as anger and irritability
Poor concentration and "foggy brain".
Overheating of the body, especially the face and torso.
Recurrent headaches (including migraine) associated with nausea.
Allergies - sinusitis, hay fever, asthma, dermatitis, hives, etc.
Multiple food and chemical sensitivities.
Skin rashes and inflammations
Coated tongue.
Bad breath.
Skin rashes.
Itchy skin (pruritus).
Excessive sweating.
Offensive body odour.
Dark circles under the eyes.
Yellow discoloration of the eyes.
Red, swollen, itchy eyes (allergic eyes).
Acne rosacea - (red pimples around the nose, cheeks and chin).
Brownish spots and blemishes on the skin (liver spots).
Red palms and soles which may also be itchy and inflamed.
Flushed facial appearance or excessive facial blood vessels (capillaries/ veins).
Hormonal Imbalances.

So yeah... It sucks :S I don't know what to do...I've been thinking about doing a "Cleanse" or "Detox". I know a lot of you are wary of that word, but I truly feel it's what I need right now. Nothing so drastic. Here's some of the info I googled:

Why is it Important to Detox the Liver?

As we have just pointed out, the liver works hard to filter out the poisons (that our body does not need and will actually cause it harm) from the nutrients that it vitally needs. The liver is under tremendous stress in today's polluted, preservative-filled, chemically-overdosed world. Helping the liver to stay healthy and keep up with its job of filtering out the muck from the good stuff is essential to our lives
and overall well-being .

How Does a Liver Detox Work?

Anyone who is interested in preserving and improving their health and longevity should undertake a liver detox diet. To detox the liver you must avoid caffeine, preservative-filled foods, sugar and fatty junk food. Along with this be certain to drink lots of H20. If possible, drink mineral water or filtered water. If you like, drink warm lemon juice. Concentrate on a menu filled with veggies, including dark green leafy ones and the cruciferous variety form the cabbage family. Also include berries and onion, as well as various seeds like flax, sesame, sunflower and pumpkin.

So yeah... that's what Iwill be doing for 21 days...I'll be login in here daily and see how I am doing. I f I feel better maybe I'll only do it for 15 days... I really hope to make it to 21 days but we'll see how it goes. No caffeine, nothing processed, lots of veggies and fruit, no junk food and lots of water. I'll also be drinking chlorophyll. Remember Iron Man, and how Tony Stark used to drink loads of chlorophyll to detoxify from the Palladium in his body?

And I must make clear: I AM NOT MAKING THIS TO LOSE WEIGHT. I'm doing it because I really feel like crap. I know I must not drink alcohol because I have a shitload of pills everyday and still!!! I've been drinking from thursday to sunday. NOT GOOD. this has to stop. I won't be eating less than what I am eating now, just different kind of food. (DISCLAIMMER: I have a rather slow metabolism and the ammount of food I eat is good for me, but probably won't be enough for you, so please DON'T try to compare your intake with mine. Everybody is different.)

I'm going to make 5 simple rules to follow this Detox

No alcohol, caffeine, or cigarrettes.
No processed food or fake sugars!! (if it comes in a box, wrap, foil, tin, can, whatever, it's a big NO!)
No fried food and no processed starches (bread, tortillas, cookies, etc. natural starches like beans and sweet potatoes are OK)
A glass of chlorophyll water when I wake up and one before I go to bed.
At least two meals a day should be mostly green and preferentially mostly raw (green smoothies, green juices, salad, veggie soups, steamed vegetables)

I'm planning on kicking of this detox by having a Green Monster (spinach, mango, flax seed, maybe soy milk) tomorrow for breakfast! With a cup of peppermint tea on the side maybe.

If anyone wants to join me on this detox, please leave me a comment and we will be on this together!!! :)

Day 6: a pic of someone you'd trade places for a day

2011-01-21T19:37:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!!!! Thanks for the comments on the last post!

Guess what!? I ended up bumping onto my ex on Wednesday! :S I guess when it's supposed to happen it happens :s
It was a weird night too.. my life is so filled with those, can you tell? We went to have dinner to the sushi place where this guy I told you about works, and I brought him a package of oreos that we had bet on on Twitter... don't ask...anyways, I almost made him drop some trays...he was very happy to see me and bring the oreos hahahaha I felt like Sayuri in memoirs of a geisha, do you remember that scene?

So, yeah, we had dinner there and then we went to a bar that's in a very cool street (because there are no cars and it's surrounded by bars and restaurants) and of all the cool bars we ended up in a shit hole and we ended up bumping into my ex. It was very awkward because I was with a couple of friends that HE COULDN'T STAND (one of them was actually one of the reasons we broke up, he thought my friend had a secret crush on me...sicko) and I was trying to get us out of the bar before he saw us but it was impossible. Just as I was leaving (my friends did make it to the door, thanks god), he came over and said hi. It was also awkward because I was wearing heels (platforms actually, so he couldn't tell I was wearing heels, muahahaha! *insert evil laugh*) and I TOWERED over him. I never ever wore heels when we were together so he was kindda shocked and looking at my feet the whole time. His friends (who are kindda my friends too, but not close friends) came over to say hi too and then they left us alone. He was really trying to make a conversation and asking, "why were you going to leave without saying hi?" so I told him I was with my friends and I didn't wanted to cause a scene. He said that he was not the scene-making kind of guy, we exchanged a couple more words and we left.
It was also a weird night because I found out that one of my friends is pregnant, and other of my friends got his girlfriend pregnant. Oh my. Babies all around. God save us. hehehehe

And...onto the 30 days challenge!!!! Day 6: a pic of someone you'd trade places for a day.After much thinking, I chose two people because I couldn't choose just one!!

Number one: Kris Carr. I'd trade places with her because she's one of the women I admire the most EVER. She's a cancer survivor, and she's all around positive energy. I can't find any other way to describe it. She takes beautiful photographs, made a kick-ass site, she's fun, she's hippie, she made an amazing documentary of her struggles (Crazy Sexy Cancer, please watch the trailer!!!!), she's happy, she's inspiring, she's such a good person, and she has pink strikes in her hair like me!!! :P

Number two: Sean Lennon. First of all, because he's the love child of Yoko Ono and John Lennon. How awesome is to have them as parents? I admire those two like you have no idea. Second, he's an incredible musician. Who doesn't want to be a talented artist? a musician? he has a rocking band with his girlfriend, model and singer Charlotte Kemp Muhl called Ghost of a Saber Tooth Tiger. I love it. And I love her too!!!! She's my not so secret girl crush. Her style is to die for.

And third, because I've always wanted to know what it feels like to be a guy. I mean, think about it. As girls, there's nothing that is impossible for us to do. Some things are harder to achieve than others, but nothing is really Impossible. Except it is impossible to be a man. That's something we will never experience. It's just crushing to know there's something completely out of your reach. We can't pee standing up, we will never fell what it's like to have masculine hormones running through our veins and, we'll never know what it's like to be the plug-in side of the sexual act. It's sad if you think about it! hahaha that's why I'd like to be Sean Lennon for a day! (hope I didn't freak you out!)

I'm a little nervous because tomorrow I'm going to start my french course! I'm going to go and have dinner, hope you have a wonderful weekend. THANKS GOD IS FREAKING FRIDAY!

Day 5: a pic of your favorite memorie

2011-01-18T00:43:00.000-08:00

Today was a very weird day. First of, we woke up with the news that a relative committed suicide. It was a very far-away relative that I didn't know at all but it was shocking to say the least. The girl was my age and she was in a rehab center for her addiction to alcohol and depression. I felt weird all day because of it. It was very sad. My prayers are with her so she can continue on the next stage of her rainbow journey. We didn't go to any service or mass because as I said, I didn't know that side of the family at all. It was just sad and shocking to find out anyways.

Then I took a very important step towards my journey to adulthood. Okay, this is going to be very embarrassing, but I drove somewhere alone for the FIRST time ever. I know, I know, I'm a 21 year old woman and all. But I relayed on public transport, my legs and kind people to give me a ride anywhere because I don't drive at all. But my father was busy and I really had to get some errands done so I just took the car and went. It wasn't so scary!!! Now, I have to get my license and stuff. I hope the exam isn't difficult? I flunked driving school trying to drive a stick-shift, so I hope the exam will be on my own car.

Second, I went to a yoga class ALONE!!! Embarrassing to tell, also, but I always went with my friends and today they couldn't go and I almost didn't go too because the idea of going alone was challenging!!! However I wommaned up and went alone!! It was actually better because I didn't have any distractions. I'm usually goofing around with them and giggling when we lose our balance during tree pose, and without them I could actually focus!!!

Third, I had a DATE!!!!! After yoga, I met with this guy who's a friend of a friend and who works at the sushi place where we go all of the time. Every time we went there we would stare at each other (he´s a waiter) and then he facebooked me and we started talking on twitter and we said we would go out for coffee. I don't know if it was a real date or just "hanging out" but he payed for the coffee so I guess it was a date? I'm sorry, it's been a while!!

And... for the 30 day challenge, a pic of my favorite memorie! This was a hard one, I have too many favorite memories!! However, I choose this 3memories: The first one is from my trip to Mazatlan (a beach in Sinaloa) in 2009 with my two best friends.
The second pic is from a school trip in November, which actually wasn't my school trip, it was another major school trip (I'm friends with everyone in that class so I skipped school for 3 days and went with them anyways) hehe and the third is from my last day of school ever!!!! I love that pic, because it's the only day I actually REALLY enjoyed from all of this graduation stuff: ceremony, parties, etc etc., it's the only day were there was no pressure to put on a dress or go and say a speech or anything, just my friends and me having beers and music blasting in my garage.

And that's it for today folks. I'm very tired: I ran, I went to a 2-hour yoga class and I walked 10 blocks to meet with a guy for coffee. (by the way, it was totally worth it ;) )

Mazatlán 09


Aguascalientes 2010 Last day of school EVER

Day 4:,a pic of your night: crashing a hipster party.

2011-01-16T22:12:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!!!! Thanks for all your lovely comments you leave in every post :)
Following up with the "My life in 30 days" challenge.. I'll tell you about my weekend and post some pictures from last night! This weekend was kind of crazy.

First, on Friday I almost ran into my ex =S Me and some friends went bar-hopping, we walked in bar #1 (where there are the best waffle-fries ever) and didn't stay because it was packed, and there was no place to sit so we could order something and eat, so we left. Then we went to bar#2, and we couldn't get in because they asked for our ID's (how stupid is that) and we didn't have them with us. I mean, we are all over 21. That was weird. I was a bit upset because a great band was in that bar, playing Nirvana and Radiohead covers. Finally we went to bar#3 where another cool live band was playing. I ran into a ton of friends from my semi-groupie days (hehe I'll tell you about it someday xD) and it was a lot of fun :) Then I came home and my ex was online, (I could tell he was very drunk) and he asked me "what did you do tonight?" I told him and he was like OMG I WAS AT THE SAME PLACES TOO!! and then he said "It would have been good to see you again" Waddafuck that means is beyond me.

Then yesterday I had a lot of fun too because I went out with my (girl) friends and we went to this weird hipster party, it was held inside a gym and they had a guest list (we were not in it)!!!

straightening up her head-band

surprised looks

pff somehow we crashed and made it in and we danced, drank vodka sodas and basically just watched all the hipster wannabes and stuff. It was cool but I guess it's just not my crowd at all. Then we started talking about which character from SATC would each of us be? Since there's four of us and all. Charlotte and Miranda were promptly decided but we had a hard time placing Carrie and Samantha, because both Paola and me thought we were Carrie-ish. At the end I was Samantha. I don't know why. I never have casual sex, ever !!! hahaha I've never seen myself as a man-eater, but I couldn't be Carrie because my friend has waaaaay more style than me. Then we tried to do the same with "The Sisterhood of traveling pants" and again my friends had a hard time deciding wether I was Tibby or Bridget. We dropped it off because no one wanted to be Carmen. xD

it was held at a gym. it felt so 90's!

"Samantha" and "Miranda"

vodka,grape juice, soda

"Carrie" and "Charlotte"

We then went to have dinner at a 24/7 taquería, and I had some delicious tacos of champiqueso which is a mix of mushrooms and cheese. I'm totally going to write "The vegetarian guide to taquerías and Mexican food" someday hehe

champiqueso: mushrooms and cheese! check out the yummy cheese-crust

So...that pretty much sums up my night yesterday :) today I went to see Megamind for the 4th freaking time!!!!! OMG I love that movie. Seriously it's so funny. It's the cutest villain in movies ever and the soundtrack is incredible. I wish my next boyfriend that was a mix between Megamind, Scott Pilgrim and Dave Lisewski from Kick Ass. Is it totally sick that I find it adorable,even if it's an animated blue alien? I'm such a geek xD I need a real-life boyfriend soon, I mean it!!! It's been more than 8 months! ehhe (desperate much?)

H-O-T

Can Michael Cera be any more cute?

In other news...remember my smoking HOT yoga teacher???a gay friend told us he saw him at a gay bar!!! Holy shit. I don't know if that proves if he's gay or not....what do you think???? While we find out, I guess we can all stop drooling at him during sun salutations.

So...the weekend was awesome but I can't wait to get back to more structured days. I need a job, ASAP. It's nice to be under the covers and not having to get up early in the cold but I'm getting bored!!!!! By the way, my hands are really starting to be affected by the cold weather. Check them out:

can u see the red spots?

grossed out yet?

I swear I rub on a lot of hand lotion and they are not getting better =S yikes!!

Anyways, how was your weekend??? Crazy parties? Cozy movie-dates?
And have you ever been in love with a fictional character? Do you think my yoga teacher is gay for visiting a gay bar? What do you reccomend I put on my hands? hehehe lots of questions!

See you later alligators!

What I want to do with my life..

2011-01-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

Nowadays, I get asked that question like a bazillion times a day, now what? what are you going to do next? what do you want out of your life? GEEZ!!!!!! It's fucking exasperating!!!!
It's specially panic-attack inducing because I really can't go anywhere right now until I'm healthy and I finish my thyroid-treatment. It sucks big time. I had so many freaking plans that now have to be put "on hold". However, sometimes I think, what if I got sick for a reason? what if this is the place I need to be right now? because, if I haven't been sick, never in a million years I would have stayed at home, living with my parents after graduation.

I'm trying to take little steps. Today I went to sing up for a french course. It takes a loooot longer than I thought to get your DELF & DALF certification. Like a year. But it's something I really want to do because you can't work at France if you don't know the language. Now that the french classes schedules are set up, I can begin to look for a job. French classes will only be on saturdays so I have all the week available. I don't care what kind of job I take right now, because I want to focus on painting, french and yoga at the moment. Honestly, I just want something that pays good cash so I can save money while I'm stuck at home and that it's not so time consuming.

I really want to keep up my painting.Not only because it makes me SO HAPPY to paint, but also because I want to sell them. It's not about the money, but I want to know that I am able to make a profit being an artist. I want to know that I can make a living doing something that makes me so happy. i know it won't happen today, this month, or maybe even this year but I know it will happen if I persevere.

Just thinking outloud... I may seem lost but I'm not THAT lost. I have like a sketch, a blueprint in my head of what I want in life, it's just not a step-by-step. I'm putting this out onto the Universe....(P.S. Actually, i just erased all the I WANTS and change them to I WILL, Because I will!!!)

I will paint, paint, paint, everyday.
I will learn french. Watch Amelie without subtitles. Sing in french. Listen to Charlotte Gainsbourg and Carla Bruni sing in french.

I will learn all the languages I can so I can work and live ANYWHERE.
I will travel all around the world.

I will be more spiritual person, meditate everyday, learn more.

I will be able to really help other people, work for a cause I deeply care for. A life that it's not lived to serve others at some point is no life at all.
I will dye my hair pink, purple, blue, yellow, green, like a fucking rainbow.

I will get more tattoos, that really mean something for me, that make me feel like my body it's mine.
I will attend a lot of concerts.

Speaking of which.. I will feel ok in my body. I want to enjoy my body, honor it, take care of it.

I will eat a green meal everyday. Green juice, green smoothie, salad, veggie soup, whatever!!! A green food a day makes me feel really good, and I don't need to obsess about anything else with that very simple and easy-to-do habit.

I will live by the sea.

I will have very long hair.
I will have very long hair and then french-braid it.
I will wear long, flowy, tye dye or flower-print dresses.
I will drink a lot of tea.
I will learn something extraordinaire like tarot reading, or palm reading or the power of crystals or medicinal herbs.

I will play the ukulele. Or the tambourine.

I will wear hats without shame.
And lots and lots of bangles and beads.
I want my etsy shop to be fucking amazing. (IT WILL)
I will cook delicious vegetarian meals that my family will enjoy with me.
I will have a midnight picnic and drink champagne.
I will fly in a hot-air balloon.
I will hug and kiss all the people I love.
I want to have a pen-pal. And write old-fashioned letters. Will you be my pen-pal?
I will take photographs of the eiffel tower.

I will travel to Argentina, Brasil, India, Indonesia, France, Cabo San Lucas, Cuba...
I want to watch Black Swan.

I will watch a sunrise and a sunset on the same day.

I will travel somewhere by train.
And by boat.
I will go hiking.

I will not be afraid to be my own person.

I will write a book.
I'll decorate my room beautifully and declutter every single drawer!!!!
I will live simply and never ever buy anything I don't REALLY need.
I will never care again about fashion trends. If I like it I'll wear it.
I will adopt lots of kids.
I will eat rainbow-colored pancakes.

I will be the best friend, sister and daughter I can be.

I want to fall in love again. Truly, madly, deeply, obsessive-compulsive love. But I also want to be in love with someone that will never ever cut my wings back, or at least is willing to fly by my side ;)

My Etsy shop!!!

2011-01-11T10:02:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone!!!
I'm back from a little hiatus, I was really busy because I created my own Etsy shop!!! It's called "La Casa de Lola" which means "The House of Lola".
I decided to sell my paintings, most of them I created while taking Goddess Leonie e-course. I'm selling paintings which I created with positive energy and intention (some I made to let go, center, balance energy, etc) I'm also selling hand-painted cards. Take a little moment to check it out, you won't regret it!!!

Here are some paintings you can find there:

hand-painted cards for every ocassion

this represents the 4 stages in a woman's life: childhood, maiden, mother and elder.

specially made to balance the chakra energy


this represents eggs, ovulation, rebirth, evolution

In other news!!! I've been feeling a sense of total disconection with my body...like I look in the mirror and I expect to see something different and I don't recognize the person staring back at me.. it's so weird. I hope yoga helps with that. What doesn't help is that I can't help it but have a crush on my yoga teacher. He has dreads. Holy smokes.

How was your weekend??? Tell me all about it!!!!

Graduation party time!!!

2011-01-08T14:14:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!!! I haven't updated because I've been going crazy with all of my graduation party preparation!!!
I had to buy a dress (soooo last minute I know!!), shoes, accessories, booze, etc.
It was yesterday and I have to say... I had the time of my life!!! it was so damn good I got home at 7 a.m. I tried to stay awake later to watch the sunrise but I just couldn't do it!
I drank like a sailor...I know, not so good for my liver but how many graduation partys I have left? NONE! I tried to make up for it today and I had a nice "recovery breakfast". Plus saltines and a ton of water. God I hate hangovers hahaha. But I have very good anti-hangover recipes. They don't hit me like they used to!!! I'll share all of them with you one day if you want to!

My cousin did my hair and makeup and I loved it!! I dyed my hair black again and my dress was red so it looked pretty good. Although the dress was not so pretty :s It was beautiful in the hanger but it made me look like a pregnant woman...it was more a night gown than a party dress!! Seriously I got asked if I was pregnant twice =S

I'm going to let the pics do the talking!

bathroom-mirror shots

"preggers-woman" nightgown dress

side-shot

hair and make-up was gorgeous though!

a diva is the female version of a hustleeeer (8) glamed-up on the way to the church

a LOT of this was consumed

my friends had fun too

me and my handsome date (my little cousin :P)

BFFs

BFFs!!!

the food was ridiculously AWESOME. It had sushi, shrimp, cherry tomatoes filled with cream cheese, canapes, cheese, crackers, etc!

Day 3: a picture of the cast of your favorite show, and I've been tagged !! :)

2011-01-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

This is the tv show I'm loving right now:

I was tagged by Laura for a little survey!! here I go ;)

Four words/phrases I use Too Much
This won't make a lot of sense for you, but you can use it as an opportunity to learn curse-words in spanish hehe
1) Neta .- It means something like "for real" or "really"
2) No me chingues .- "Don't fuck with me! "it's not threatening, it's like when you are surprised about something
3)No manches .- Something between Oh my god! and "don't mess with me"
4)Oyeee .- Heeeey

Four of my Passions
1) Running outdoors and swimming: There is nothing like feeling the wind in your face and the soft grass under your feet.And swimming! if I could do this all year long, I'd definitely would. I always compare swimming to yoga, in the water, because you have to focus in your breathing only and the water isolates you from everything else in the world.
2)Music: Like I said in the last post, I have NO musical talent at all hehe but man, do I love to listen to music. I don't even own an Ipod but I play music all day long in my laptop. Stereomood is my favorite.
3)Painting: I am not the greatest painter in the world. I never plan anything when I sit down to paint, I just stare at the white canvas and let the watercolors do the talking. Sounds cheesey I know xD

one of my paintings ;)

4) Blogging: This year I discovered how much I love to write!! I write in my blog in spanish every tuesday, thursday and saturday. I feel like I have my own magazine or something haha

Four things you'd discover upon meeting me in person:
1) I'm very anxious. I can't stay in the same place for long. I'm jumping all around.
2) I'm always chewing gum. Always. And when I'm not chewing gum I'm eating.
3)I have a lot of "dumb blonde" moments. Even if my hair is black, orange, brown, pink, whatevs.
4)I always have a Voldemort in my life. "He who must not be named" hehe.. Annoying. I'm working on it.

Four things I've learned from the Past
1) You shape your relationships as you want to. You can't blame it all on the guy. It's your relationship too so you have the responsability to decide what you want and don't want from it.
2)You have to accept your body as it is. No matter how thin I get, the smallest dress size I'll be is a 6. Because I have a wide back and I have to come to terms with it.

size 8? that's about right!

3)The Secret doesn't work. Ok, it may work for some people. But not for me. Because it makes me create expectations versus possibilities. And when expectations don't happen it's just dissapointing.
4)Nothing stays the same. Nothing is static. Everything changes and evolves.

Four favorite foods:
1) Coffee. Two packets of stevia, cinnamon and a splash of soy milk ;)

coffee from my favorite coffee shop.

2) Fruit: specially papaya, apples and bananas.
3) Corn tortillas, guacamole, beans and many other mexican yummies ;)
4) Vegetable tempura. I know they are deep fried vegetables but they are the most deliciously greasy thing in the world.

Four TV shows I love:
1) Sex and the City is what I'm loving right now.
2) That 70's show. I can't get enough of it!
3) Friends. I don't know why, but I can watch it over and over and over and over.
4) The Rock of Love. Gosh I know, I know. Bad TV. hehe

Four TV shows I loved:
1) Scrubs. I loved it, but not anymore!!!
2)Gossip Girl. I don't know why I stopped watching it.
3) Sabrina the Teenage Witch.
4)Skins: I liked the original with Syd and Cassy and all those guys.

Four things I'm looking forward to:
1) My graduation party this friday!
2)What this year holds for me.
3)Spring!!!!! I hate cold weather!
4)Black Swan hitting the theaters over here!

So!!!! I'm tagging:

1) Alex!
2) Kelsey
3)Eliza
4)Maya

Day 2: A picture of you and a person you've been close for a while

2011-01-03T13:23:00.000-08:00

Miguel


Carlos. He hates to be photographed :P

This two guys are my best guy-friends. Actually, I consider them my brothers!!!! I met Miguel in college about 4 years ago when we were both kind of Emo xD it was fun. And Carlos I've known forever. No, really, I've known him since I was born!!! hehe because her sister and my sister were in the same kindergarden together and our mothers were good friends so I really know him all my life!!!
I love them to dead. They are a lot of fun, they like music, movies, videogames, etc. I feel safe when I'm with them. It helps that they are both Huge hehehehe

In other topics.... I think I'm having liver problems.It hurts and I have other syntomps that are too weird to describe in here, so I'll keep them for myself. I know it must be due to all the excesive ammount of pills I have to take every day, but I got to see a doctor any way. And it might also be because I used to drink a shizload. Ok, not that much, but there was a time in 2009 when every weekend I'd party hard and came home drunk. Can that cause liver damage? I don't know, I'll have to ask Dr.Google ;) jk xD I want to do a detox again soon, so I'll start tomorrow. My goal: 1 green smoothie or green juice and 1 salad a day. No dairy. It's doable!

I just had a wonderful run and I ate sushi and tomato with honey mustard for lunch. Sounds weird but it's yummy!

Have a nice week-start bloggies!!!

Day 1: Pictures of you and 15 facts

2011-01-02T11:32:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone!!I'm following Dana's here lead and I'll be doing the "My life in 30 days challenge"
I think this kind of challenges is great so we can get to know each other a little bit better!
So here I go ;)

being goofy with orange hair

before my sister's wedding

at my bday part

with my cousin this last Xmas

showing off one of my gifts

just out of college!!!

1)My natural hair color is black-dark brown. I did some crazy thing with my hair this last year, I had orange hair, blonde hair,and dark brown hair. Now I have light brown hair with pink streaks. I did it because I'm a tiny bit obsessed with the movie Scott Pilgrim Vs. The world. Today I'm going black again!!!

2) I've never have a dog or a cat. When I was little I had a rabbit, but I got allergic and since then I've only have fish.

3) I love music! Rock, reggae, ska, punk, bossa nova, etc. But I have NO musical talent at all. I tried to learn how to play guitar, drums and flute xD and no result. I sing terrible. I suck at Rock Band.

4) I love to read. I love books and I'd never have a Kindle. I'm sorry but I think they just take all the magic away!!

5) I have one tattoo.

6) I love to party. It's a shame that I can't do that often now because my city is getting very insecure to get out at night. Isn't that sad?

7) I have terrible style. My sister helps me to put outfits together and I basically wear them over and over and over until she helps me make new outfits xD Sometimes I copy things I see from magazines but to be honest I don't care all that much.

8) I want to spend my life traveling. Is my ultimate dream. I can't stay at the same place for a long time.

9) I've known my best friends for almost 10 years now. I love them to dead.

10) I love to go to the movies. My dad and I go to the movies almost every sunday!!! The last movie I saw was Tron in 3D and IMAX. It was amazing!

11) I don't think I want to have any babies. Maybe I'll adopt some kids one day, when I'm ready.

12) I'm a coffee addict. I try to quit because I know it's not all that good, but I just can't!!!! The longer I've been without coffee was for 15 days. I tried my best!!!

13) I love green monster smoothies. I was reluctant to try them because they are a blog-trend but it was love at first sip!! I also love green juice, made with nopales, pineapple, lime and celery.

14) I think languages come very easy to me. I speak spanish (duh!), english, and I'm learning french. I understand italian and portuguese.

15) I break a lot of cameras, cell phones, ipods and any electronic devices I can get my hands on.

So that's a bit about me!!! Join the challenge so we can get to know everyone better :)

I had an epiphany

2011-01-01T13:54:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!!! I'm back!!!!
How was your Xmas? I had a good time, spend the night with my family singing in the karaoke and exchanging gifts. in Mexico we open gifts as soon as the clock strokes midnight, we can't wait till Xmas morning!
I got the Eat, Pray Love book, and I started reading it and I'm in love ♥

I also got a cool faux-leather studded bag and a cute vest (blue, leopard print) and a shirt that says "Angel Athlete" in the front and "Ready to fly" in the back :)

A lot of food was consumed (obviously) but I kept my anxiety in check by making some healthier choices. For example, my mom always make a delicious desert made with apples, canned pineapple, marshmallows, pecans, raisins, and mixed with condensed sweet milk and cream. I made a variation with shredded carrot, apples, raisins, pecans and cranberries mixed with soy milk and yogurt :P

my mom's marshmallow-apple salad

the healthier choice

There was also a bat of mashed potatoes so I made some baked sweet potatoes and also I made a green salad with lime and jicama. It was refreshing in the midst of all that heavy food!

Anyways, enough about Xmas. I want to tell you about an epiphany I had this new years eve while I was eating the 12 grapes. I was thinking about wishing for a good health this year, and I thought about how crazy my body is, with all my thyroid problems, my health issues and because I think my body still thinks I'm in puberty or something. And then I though "well, maybe if you didn't treat it as if it was your worst enemy it wouldn't act like it!" It really hit me a mantra I read in the book Om Namah Sivaya It means "I bow to Shiva." Shiva is the supreme reality, the inner Self. It is the name given to consciousness that dwells in all. Shiva is the name of your true identity- your self, which can be simply put as "I honor the Divine in me". or I honer my inner Self. How many time do I forget that I am not a body with a soul, but a soul with a body? here I am, obsessing about my boobs being small, my thighs being huge, my calves being bulky or my waist not being tiny enough. Instead of honoring my body like a temple for my soul. I spend hours and hours caring for how I look, doing exercise, putting on make up, and specially just being mean with my body, saying mean thing over and over again instead of using that time to grow in my spiritual path. I want to be kind with my body this year, and maybe, my body will be kind with me. I want to treat it like a best friend, and maybe it will start acting like my best friend too.

I wish you all a happy New Year.!! :) What are your resolutions this year? your desires? purposes? goals? whatever?

And this is my year in pictures!!!! :) http://corre-lola-corre.blogspot.com/2010/12/el-2010-en-fotos-p.html

Bythe way, do you like the new blog design???

Merry Xmas and see u in 2011!

2010-12-24T00:29:00.000-08:00

Hey all of you, my 2.3 readers out there ;)
I know this blog has become like one of those old houses that used to be so pretty and now everything is covered in dust and white bed sheets! (that´s how I see it anyway hehe) I haven't posted in forever and when I posted I used it to vent and I said a lot of not so pretty things.

So, to give you (anyone who still reads) a quick update, things are going good on the thyroid department; I'm going into the next stage of my treatment so I shall be over in 6 months max.
I feel better about the weight gain, it's coming right off and my appetite has decreased back to normal levels. The relationship with my parents is OK.

I just graduated from college by the way!!!! =D BIG NEWS! something really awful happened but I don't want to get into details right now. Let's just say I was going to be class valedictorian, and then I didn't and my mom almost pulled a Kanye.

Another BIG NEWS I dyed part of my hair PINK! It looks pretty rad :P

So Im just here to wish you all a Merry Christmas! I hope you have a nice day surrounded by people you love, and you give and receive a lot of hugs and love!! I'm sending y'all tons of hugs and sprinkle-covered cookies :)

I'm giving myself a technological break until 2011 to have some kind of breather!!! To just be with myself and my family and get away from all social networks! So I won't be giving life-signs until 2011! I hope to see you then ;)

I'll revamp this old blog then too!!! Please if you are a reader or a lurker, tell me what do you want to see more off next year? what don't you want to see anymore? anything! heheheh

xoxo
Lola

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Let's talk cocktails and coffee!

2010-12-03T19:08:00.000-08:00

Hey girls!!! it's been a while, I know!! But I really wanted to drop by and post this two beverage recipes, which were my favorites when I was a bartender :)

The classic Mojito!!
If you haven't had a mojito you haven't lived!
You need:

1.5 oz. of rum (white rum, and cuban if possible :P)
Two tablespoons of powdered sugar (not agave, not Splenda, not stevia, SUGAR)
Peppermint leaves (I don't know if it's called peppermint or spearmint...? in anycase, in spanish is yerbabuena or hierbabuena)
Ice
Soda water

You have to mash the peppermint leaves and sugar, put them in the bottom of a high glass, add ice, rum and fill with soda water!

It's delicious and refreshing! :) Not specially appealing if you are as cold as I am... So I'm giving you another recipe for the colder days! "Café de olla"

In Mexico, we call café de olla to a coffee made in a pot with cinnamon and loads of piloncillo (a kind of brown sugar). In reality, i don't know how to make it! But I was really craving one, so i boiled some cinnamon sticks in a pot of water, and when it was ready i mixed some instant coffee and brown sugar and Voila! Instant Café de Olla!!
Try out and enjoy :)

I'm a nasty, naughty girl!!

2010-11-23T13:55:00.000-08:00

Hahaha I have a new favorite dessert!!!! Forget about the ice-cream brownies, the coconut pop-sicles, forget them all!!! I have a new favorite, and it's HEALTHY and VEGAN to boot!

I took the idea from Gena's banana soft serve, and transformed it into a chocolate covered creamsicle! (stick bars? I don't know how you guys call them!!)

You are so last summer!

So the final product is...a Choco-banana!!!!

Recipe:

1 serving of Chocolate-Covered Katie's PMS (that sounded very...Odd)
A stick
A banana!
Almonds, nuts, rice krispies, choco krispies, sprinkles!! The sky is the limit

It's so easy to make just put the banana on a stick, cover them with the PMS and freeze!!!


This pics are so TWSS they are almost NSFW hahaha xD

I hope you enjoy them!!! Maybe you've tried them before??? Let me know if you make them and link back :P

By the way, this is my other blog, in spanish, and I update regularly, in case you want to check it out!!

Corre, lola, corre

I'm so mad...

2010-11-19T05:40:00.000-08:00

I know I said I wouldn't write in this blog anymore but it's either this or paying 60 bucks to my therpist, and i don't have 60 bucks, so to anyone who stills read this blog, bare with me while I take the garbage out.
I woke up early to work out, but I just couldn't do it!!!! I wokeup at 6 and just stared at my effing computer monitor. I discovered I'm so pissed off at life. Yesterday I was thinking about it and a huge lump formed in my throat and tears formed in my eyes. Why t f? I was afraid to admit it because I though "c'mon, you are surrounded by blessings, is not like if you have cancer or whatever" and it's TRUE!! I know that!!! But if I can't admit I am angry, even to myself, well then I am even more fucked up.
I am angry because I am such a positive person,you know? and still, a lot of bad things happen to me!!! I'm starting to think the "law of atraction" is such bull shit! and I don't want to think that cuz it just seems like an endless cycle of negativity but I do.... it's so sad!!! But my year has been ROUGH to say the least. It's been downright shitty. First, my relationship ended as you guys know. And I thought I was dealing with it, but I guess I'm not. The other day I was at the movies with a friend and I saw him with another girl. And I felt awful. And then I saw him on MSN and he starts talking to ME about how he wants to settle down finally and that his friends say she's the one. I mean, c'mon dude that's just plain CRUEL and MEAN!!!
And it's not that I still love him or want to go back with him one day, I don't!!!!! But I feel so bad about it. He was so important in my life for some reason, it's hard to let go.
And I haven't been able to move forward as he did. All my attempts to have another bf were not happening. You remember what happened with this guy and the norwegin gf? Well the s.o.a.b. still calls me and he even asked me on my bday if he could bring his gf to MY party. Is he fucking retarded or something? Of course I said no. And then another ex was like all friendly and saying he still loved me bla bla bla and then he got a new gf too. I feel so shitty.
Of course there are other things. My relapse was fucked up. I mean, why???? I eat pretty healthy. I do!!!! I exercise everyday. I do anything you are supposed to do for good health. So why he fuck that happened to me? It blows my mind. I thing God is angry at me, I'm not being positive enough, I dont know!!!! I can't find a logical explanation!!!!!!!
I gained weight, even though I BUSTED my ass 2 hours daily. It's coming off now, but I just can't deal with the fact that people looked at me and though "Oh my, she's letting herself go, she's gaining weight!!" and my parents, who always bugged me about not eating enough, well, I was having a medication that increased my appetite and they had the NERVE to tell me "oh don't worry your appetite will go down once you are off that med" as if "oh don't worry you won't be eating like a FUCKING MANIAC anymore" I mean. cmon!!!!!!!!!!! whats wrong with them!!! first they bugged me and nagged me and give me HELL about not eating enough and once Iwas eating more they were like OH YOU ARE EATING TOO MUCH!
It made me feel like shit. Like I was a fat bitch and I was eating them out of the house.
And that's not all. Im turning into FUCKING ZITZILLA.My face is full of pimples. I hate my face when I seee it in the mirror. I used to be the girl that walked around without makeup and now I have to wear like 3 fucking layers of makeup everywhere I go. And all becaus of that stupid meds. That good for nothing meds.
And then my sister, who was HELL before her wedding, and made all of our lives miserable because she was acting like crazy (I'm not exaggerating I sware, she treated us pretty badly) now says she may get a divorce. I know it's not my business, I know she has the right to do it, but I feel like all the miserable days we were inflicted to, all the fighting, all the crying,. were for nothing.
And all my friends have relationships, ALL of them, even my younger cousins, I FEEL SO ABANDONDED. I'm like alone on weekends. Even one of my best friends (male) whom I used to go out every weekend, ditched me on Halloween!!! and I saw his pics on facebook, all dressed up with his face painted like a fucking zombie, and it made me wanted to cry :( He apologized but I still felt like shit. abandoned. unloved.
And I'm tired of being sad and angry, and have people tell me CMON YOU ARE NOT LIKE THAT, PUT ON A BIG FAKE SMILE BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO THINK POSITIVE TO GET POSITIVE THINGS. You know what? I was the queen of fucking positive and look where that got me!!!

Im sorry for venting out like this. But everything is not RAINBOWS AND UNICORNS AND FLOWERS AND SHIT in my life, no matter how much I try, no matter how much "affirmations and meditations" I feel so angry!!!!! I have a doctor appointment on saturday. I have a school dance. I have a fucking school parade too, where I will be dressed up like a lady bug. I hate everything. I hate my life. I want to throw myself in a balck hole and not come out until 2011.

I took it all out and it's not enough. I want to punch something. But I do feel a little better

Halloween and the

2010-11-01T19:41:00.000-07:00

I'm losing interest about this blog :(

If you speak spanish please go to my real life blog!

BLOG

I don't want to lose contact with you guys so even if you don't speak spanish, add me in facebook!!

http://www.facebook.com/bibixs

I believe in pink (food)!

2010-10-25T18:57:00.000-07:00

A lovely quote I picked up from Maya's blog, and a lovely collage of pink food :) I'll try to post pics of my bday party tomorrow!

"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. :P I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
-Audrey Hepburn.

Happy bday to me

2010-10-19T18:15:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my bday!!!!! :) Im excited, I want to make this year even more awesom than the last :)

I was going to upload my friend's wedding pics but "the image uploads are disabled for 2 hours due to maintenance" bla blah blah....

Any ways... I'm just here to vent... cuz the guy I'm supposed to go on a date tonight is already 1 hour and 15 minutes late. Awesomeness. Happy bday to me.

Last meal

2010-10-13T14:52:00.000-07:00

I loved today's post from Jenna of Eat,Live,Run she asked, what would your last meal be?? Is definetely a tough question since there are so many things I love so much!!! But I thought about it and I thing I came up with an answer, here it goes!

Appetizer: A platter of veggie sushi rolls and tempura vegetables., with a caipirinha on the side!

Main course: I'd have a wrap: spinach tortilla, filled with apple slices, oaxaca cheese, spinach and honey mustard dressing. With salad and grilled veggies (broccoli, zucchini, pepper, onion, mushrooms) and a TON of guacamole on the side. I'd have sparkly water with lime to drink.

Dessert: That's a pretty tough question but I think I'd have a brownie topped with vanilla ice cream (maybe even pistachio) and chocolate syrup and a cup of coffee with soy milk and brown sugar. OMG!! i'am forgetting...maybe I'll have a coconut ice cream Popsicle too!

I'm drooling, seriously!!!!
What would you have???

Modeling...

2010-10-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

I´m not going to lie, I've been in a terrible and depressive mood all this week due to all the stuff that's been happening around me.... My friend's mom is out of the hospital, hiopeless... the doctors are not even going to try and save her...
However, the good news are that my friend who also thought she had cancer has not! the tumors are bening thanks the lord...so I'm happy about that...

And speaking of other things, today I went to a modeling casting for an agency... apparently, before I join the agency I need to take a 5 week course that is going to cost some bucks.., so I'm still thinking about it because I have had a lot of spending, with the trip, my sister's wedding, my new hair extensions, etc...

I also got a new hair color!!! it's light brown with a few lighter streaks.. I love it!! I'll take pics soon so you can see it :)

How was your weekend?? Mine was great, on friday I went to a friend's bday party and he made delicious monster faced cupcakes. I love frosting so you know Ihad a blast hahahah and on saturday I went to my friend's bridal shower.

Havea lovely tuesday :)

xoxo Lola

So horrible...

2010-10-07T17:10:00.000-07:00

Some things happened that had put some things in perspective...
one of my best friends mom has cancer... terminal... they won't even give her chemo since is very late :(
and a girl that was with me in the first semester has cancer too.. in the pancreas :/
i feel so bad about it and I feel like a coward little shity person for whining so much about my relapse.

Monday.

2010-10-04T20:40:00.000-07:00

Today I felt better from my sickness so I worked out! I had fun on the dance cardio but I tried the new mat video and it definetely kicked my butT! Not looking forward to wake up early and do it but... wahtever ill do it!!! Seeing my pics in a bikini at Acapulco will definetely be worth it.

I'm having a very hard time cutting back on bread :s I eat whole bread or oatmeal cookies but still!! A lot of it! I had my usual coffee at school today (no milk, since they don't do soy and I don't do dairy anymore) with two oatmeal cookies. I think tomorrow I'll take a banana instead. What do you thiink it's better?? Banana or oatmeal cookies? (in nutrition terms) since bananas have a lot of sugar and not enough fiber, but at the same time, they are unproccesed and natural so I wouldn't know what it's better nutrition wise.

I quit my job finally!!!! I'm going to start taking modeling courses!! I'm so excited :) they'll start on saturday maybe!

To-do list for tomorrow:

Wake up early to do Tracy's video.
Shower.
Have a green juice, black coffee and banana for breakfast.
Go find the clothes for my Roman culture exposition on Wednesday.
Come home, work out, shower, eat...
Maybe go out with cute guy who asked me out :)

By the way I'm really pissed off at the article Marie Claire wrote about 'the big six" food bloggers!! Completely unethical and out of context! I trashed them in their facebook page hehe

What is your To-Do list for tomorrow? What do you think about the Marie Claire controversy?? What's your usual breakfast?

Have a lovely week lovies!! The hardest day of the week is out of the way :)

Lola

I'm sick!

2010-10-03T13:41:00.000-07:00

Do you know how much I HATE getting sick?? I absolutely hate it!!! And I got a cold!! It hit me on friday afternoon after I ended my workout. At least i got to work pout for 5 days a week!
I downloades the Perfect Design Series sequence 1, since Ive been doing the mat workout by tracy anderson for 2 weeks now. They stop being effective once you get used to them. I haven't tried the new workout though, I'll start on monday once I get better.!!

Yesterday we had a sort of party with some family from another town came and I had to take care of 3 little kids and it was soooo exhausting!! I also OD on pretzels!!I love them1 they were soo good! I like them dipped in peanut butter and hot sauce. Weird but delicious!

I think Im giving up milk. Im reading a book where they explain you all the bad things about dairy and got really scared. My health isn't in top shape so I might as well give it a try! Im switching it up for soy milk.

Yesterdy I also watched the finale of Project Runway. Im so behind!! it's the season where Jeffrey won! He and Uli were my favorites so I was very happy :) I'm kind of getting the modeling bug again, i might give it a shot. I guess I need to loose some weight though! Have you guys modeled?

My favorite dress by Uli

I'm off to some nephews bday party!
Gosh sometimes I miss so much having a boyfriend!! sundays used to be perfect :(

Love you guys
xoxo
Lola

Life update!! and a Giveaway!

2010-09-28T11:17:00.000-07:00

Hey girls!! how you been???? seems like I keep updating less and less right!! But soon Ill have more free time since I'm pretty sure I'll be quiting my job soon. Is not that I don't love it (cuz I do), but is my last college year and it was really interfering in my grades and on my free time!!

But anyway, remember the guy I told you I was dating?? well it seems like he's back with his ex, from Norway or something. Apparentely, she came all the way over here to Mexico and he's back with her. I guess it's sad :(

And, in other news, Kelsey at Snacking Squirrel is hosting a giveaway!!
She's giving away Teaccinos, which are herbal coffees.

So head over here to find out how to win!! :)

Love,

Lola!

P.S. Have you seen my twitter updates in the left side of my blog?? I'm such a techonologie freak, check it out!

Independence day, guys, juice cleanse, wedding, GAGA!

2010-09-20T12:35:00.000-07:00

Hi there!!! I'm sorry I've been so M.I.A but there have been a lot of things happening!!!

1) First of all, the celebration of Mexican Independence on the 15th and 16th. It was a huge deal because is the 200th anniversary, so all the streets were so congested and I worked till very late!! But I partied too heheh after work I went to celebrate it with my friends on a bar with a roof top terraza. it was amazing!!! there was a mariachi too hehe and we had a lot of great appetizers to share: guacamole, nachos and fries. I didn't take pics but a friend did so I'll upload some later!

2) I might be dating a guy I really like. And one of my ex want to get back together and he is his friend!!! (not the one I've been talking about) .But second parts were never good right? And one of my friends might have indirectly told me he have feelings for me.

3) I made a 2 day juice cleanse. I want to do it for a longer time but I figured two days were ok to start with. I don't notice any difference, except maybe for more pimples!!!! Favorite combos: green apple, celery, cucumber, lime and pineapple, celery, and nopal (is like cacti, sound weird but it's good in a juice)

4) I bought two of Tracy Anderson's dvds. I think I've talked about her before?? Her promise is to take you to "your tiniest, tightest point", and give you a "teeny tiny dancer's body". She's Gwyneth Paltrow and Madonna's personal trainer. I'm all in for the teeny tiny dancer's body!!! Unfortunately, after I bought them (they arrive in a month or so), I googled them and found a website where you can download them for free, so I could have saved a ton of money!. I downloaded them to start right away, so I guess I bought them for nothing. But I'm totally doing them cuz I'm going to the beach in november,and...

that's tracy with her famous clients.

5) One of my best friends is getting married!!!!!! totally unexpected but is great news I'm so excited :)
Both her boyfriend and she are sooooooo cute they are going to have beautiful babies!!! the wedding is in october :)

gorgeous!!! they are so cute and so perfect together!! :) it's probably so weird I'm posting their pic but they don't even know I have a blog so I guess it's okay. But I'll probably take it down soon!

6) Im going to see Lady gaga in may of next year!!!!!!!! I can't even believe it!!!! hehe I'm going because my little cousin, who's eight, is a huge fan of her and my aunt wants me to go with them!!!

Pooooltime!!!

2010-09-09T20:20:00.000-07:00

I'm so sooorry I haven't been updating, but Ive been so busy!! finally the pool is open and I can resume my swimming practice :) I was so excited to go back :) Unfortunately, my heart beating is still very high and I find it hard to swim but that its not stopping me from enjoying every minute!!!

Recent delicious eats!!!! my dad's bday meal was simply amazing.We went to an italian restaurant and it was super good!
To start with, we ordered a mozarella cheese roll and a basket of garlic bread for the table.

Then everybody else ordered pizza and speggheti for their main meal and I ordered a fish soup and a house salad. the house salad had the most amazing dressing ever, It had (im only guessing) parsley and mustard and something else I could'nt define.
Everything was sooooo good!!!

And today, we went to this Brasilan Meat Place. I dontknow if youve ever been to one of those places, but the waiters pass through the tables with these huge like swords full of meat!! and they serve it to the people, they have different types of meat, chicken, pork, etc. I was so grossed out and I didn't really wanted to go because I thought I wouldn't be able to eat anything, but turned out, there was a hugesalad bar!!!
I lovesalad bars. Salad bars make me so happy., I had a lot of broccoli, potato cream salad, a kind of celery salas, roasted beets... I also had a slice of margherita pizza and for dessert some pineapple with cinnamon.

Delicious!!!!!!!

Clearly Ive been enjoying myself and also working out. Seems like a right balance!!!
how youve been?? comment me up!!!

Day 4

2010-09-01T21:26:00.000-07:00

this daily recps are getting fucking boring hahahahaa in a nutshell: 2 cups of coffee, whole wheat bread, an apple and a peach, cashews, tuna salad, whole wheat bread, salad, fresh cheese, pear. C'est tout
i have to go to sleep and this post is shit so if you want to comment, can you do it on my last 2 posts???
I love all of you my 2.1 readers out there :)

Day 3: soupy day

2010-08-31T19:37:00.000-07:00

Today I had coffee and oatmeal cookies for breakfast and yogurt and fruit for snack.
For lunch I had a very delicious soup my mom made with rice, beans, cabbage and avocado, with fresh cheese and salsa on top. Yum!!
I think im in love with fresh cheese. I know I said I was giving up dairy but fresh cheese is very low fat and more easily diggested.
I had a glass of apple juice at work and then I went to the park for a walk with my mom. The pool was closed once again and it had a sign saying it opens till thursday, Bummer!!!
For dinner I had another bowl of soup and a pear. Pears and fresh cheese are so yummy too! have you tried them??

Sorry for the lack of pics. Love you guys!

Day two with an odd story on the side

2010-08-30T21:38:00.000-07:00

I'm writing this post with the soundtrack of fireworks (a church near my house is having a celebration) after watching the last airbender on 3D . Let me just say the 3D sucked!!!I could have taken off my special glasses at any given time and it was the same. Shame. I went with my sister and her hubby.
My day started with a big cup of coffee(a splash of partially skimmed milk and a tb of sugar) and a chocolate chip oatmeal cookie. I know I said I was giving up coffee but the guy on the cafeteria is sooooo sweet and kind of cute!!!!I might have a tiny little crush on him :P And anyway I can't resist going to that cafe because my picture is on the wall. I feel like I own the freaking place!!! ahahahaha you want to hear the story??

Well back in 2009, there was this guy whom I was friends with. I used to have a crush on him because I thought he was really cute when I looked at him from my classroom. I knew he was friend's with a girl I know from high school because they were both in architecture. So I asked her to introduce me to him. But when she introduced me, I no longer felt atractted to him. It was weird, but I didn't feel anything for him. But he seemed to like me and started asking me out. I even went to his graduation party with him and he introduced me to his family. I liked him too, but as a friend, and I didn't want to give him the wrong impression so on several times I canceled dates with him on the very last minute (very childish I know) hehehe he was very offended by that. I know I shouldn't have done that but I thought I rather cancel in the last minute than just say no because I thought that was rude. So anyways, he went out of town without telling me for several months to work on other of my unniversity's campus (he is apparentely a brilliant architect and was hired by my university's chairman right after graduating) and when he came back to work on the new coffee shop he had apparentely forgived me and wanted to be friends again. I started going out with him again and one day he called me and asked me if I wanted to model for some pictures his photograph friend was taking for the coffee shop decor. I said yes because I kind of like modeling.

We went and take the photographs of me and a friend and afterwards he asked me for a cup of coffee and popped the question if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I said yes because I was kind of shocked, since I thought it was very clear I just wanted to be friends. I thought I would say yes and then regret it the next day and argument that I thought we were better off as friends only. But Paola told me I should give thepoor guy a chance, and I did. Said guy is my ex now, because I gave him a chance, I fell in love, lasted 6 months and he broke my heart.

C'est la vie, my friends, how could I have know? I have suffered so much and cried so much over him, but sometimes I ask myself if I regret it and you know what?I think I would do it all again. We should never regret anything we do in life, because those experiences, however painful or sad, are what make us who we are today.

So anyway, now my photographs hang in the walls of the school's coffee shop and are looked at by thousands of students daily. Is even in the freaking website. Neat, huh?

aaaand....back to the food... I snacked on an orange, pineapple, nopal, celery and parsley juice on my way home. It was good but something was a little odd. The oranges were to acidic I think.

For lunch I had a fish fillet (I have stated my feeling about eating animals before but you know my parents...)with salad, steamed vegetables and whole wheat bread with mashed avocado. I had a gif with cheese for dessert (have you tried this combo? it rocks!)

I was supposed to go swimming , but I went to the pool and it was closed.. I was so pissed :S so instead I went on a 80 minute walk.I'm getting really desperate about not neing able to do as much exercise as before. Im getting very anxious about it :S

Then I went to the movies and I had a green tea latte. I also must confessed I picked on the candy my sister brought. I ate a marshmallow and two hard-candys.

I just had an apple and a shit load of pills and im ready for bed :)

In conclusion, I think it was a good day. As Ive said before, it could have been better, wwithout the dairy, and candy.

How was your day? Have you watched The Last Airbender?

Day one

2010-08-29T19:13:00.000-07:00

Today was my first day on my new plan.
Breakfast was almost a total failure. I made this smoothie with the idea of thoso mint-chocolates. So I brewed a cup of peppermint tea and I blended it with kale, chocolate protein powder, sugar and ice. It was so disgusting!!! Never again! I only had about half of it or less. Maybe it was that I changed the usual spinach with kale or it was way too sweet?

I saved my day with a delicious and refreshing juice (I bought it but it was freshly made) of orange and celery.

My first snack was 4 dried apple rings.

For lunch I had scrambled eggs with pico de gallo, beans and a tortilla. I also had a small bowl of yogurt with pecans. I regret it almost instantly because I'm trying to cut back on dairy!!!

At work I had an apple for snack and a small piece of fresh cheese (dairy, again ...)

And for dinner I had a frapuccino (insomnic nights, anyone?) made with soy milk and a little tablespoon of brown sugar and an oatmeal-chocolate chips cookie.

In conclusion, i think I did very well. I ate more dairy than I would have liked but I didn't have any artificial sweetners or much sugar. I also had green juice and a serving of veggies. There's a lot of room for improvement but it's not a bad start :)

How was your weekend guys?? Mine was good but not great :P On friday i went to work and to a reggae concert afterwards. On saturday I didn't do much at all except work. And today I went to work and then for coffee with a friend. I also went to buy a present for my father's bday on thursday :) I bought him a book to prepare cockktails, because on father's day I got hima bottle of sake and he wanted to make cocktails with it hehe :P have you ever tried sake? what it's your favorite alcoholic drink?

Have a nice week-start guys!!

P.S. right after I finished this post I went downstairs and had a bowl of cereal: oatmeal squares with skim milk. Damn.

One tough cookie

2010-08-26T17:19:00.000-07:00

With all the hype about my relapse I never got to show you pics frommy sister's wedding!!

Those are two of my friends from college (that's me in the middle) aren't they gorgeous??? I love them to dead.
Anyway, I've got the determination to kick this relapse in the ass. I've got the tests sooner because I was not feeling good at all, and they came back all wrong =S This relapse is now for sure and Im back on all the anti thyroid meds. I hate all meds. I remember the last time I was on them and I got so many secondary effects, from muscular aches to nausea and weight gain.

So to control all the nasty effects, I'm cleaning up my diet on artificial and processed stuff, most grains and bread. Also I'll be cutting back on acidic food like coffee and chocolate. My uncle gave me this book about healing through juicing and you bet Im going to devour it!
I bought a nice notebook to write all my food intake and Im going to try and post it so you give me support!!
I also bought a nice flask to take green tea to school. My biggest challenge is to give up on artificial sweetners, specially gum!!! and I want to return to swim again, and I wanted to go back to yoga also but my I dont have the time to go to any class :S maybe ill try Karate!!what do you think? theres a school near my job and the classes' schedule works for me. Im afraid Im maybe too old to start?

that's like the notebook i bought :)

Whine and wine

2010-08-16T18:26:00.000-07:00

I'm getting over this relapse stuff. I can't say I'm not mad... I am. But I don't want to focus on it and I realized the longer I am depressed the worstit will be. I want to get better, once and for all. I thought this was over, but apparently not and that's life. C'est la vie.

I want to take this as a chance to really clean up my diet from artifical things and start eating better. I guess the only thing I can control is what I put into my body, so i will.

I can't deny I'm not worried about gain weightm because I am. A lot. Last time I had this I gained like 30 pounds :S Of course, that was three years ago and I ate a ton of junk. I hate it because I can't run...I get very agitated and my heart beats go like 200 a minute. I used to think it was because the weather was so hot but now I know is because I'm sick. And I also am very sick. I have the flu or something. I have fever and coughing fits and a very runny nose. I'm trying not to think about it and relax. The more I stress about it the worst.

Anyway, on to better and happier subjects. Tomorrow my school is hosting a seminar on wine. Iy goes on all week and we'll be hosting it. I feel so Eat Live Run already! hahha Illl keep you posted. Afterwards we'll have a test and if we pass it we can be certificated as sommeliers!! is so exciting! Ill try to take pics!

relapse

2010-08-11T14:20:00.001-07:00

I wrote about a week ago about my hair falling out in chunks... so I wen't to see my endocrinologist yesterday with my blood test results and he told me I relapsed in hyperthiroidism again :s Im so angry right now :S I spent 3 years in treatment, and I had 6 months without meds and now Im relapsing.

I will be in observation for 2 weeks and after that Ill get new tests. If I relapsed for sure, I should make the decisition ifI want to be in meds for another 6 months or get my thyroid burned with radioactive Iodum.

I'm worried

2010-08-08T10:19:00.001-07:00

Help me girls, my hair is falling out!!!! So much!!! im so worried, chunks of hair fall out when I take a shower. Im afraid ill go bald :S
I dont know if Im missing some nutrient or if it's stress or hormones :S

Water Lilies or Lotus Flowers?

2010-08-03T19:00:00.000-07:00

I can't really tell the difference between the two. Anyway, I'm attempting to do a painting for my sister, as her wedding gift. Her favorite painting is Water Lilies by Monet, so I'm trying to get some inspirtion by googling said painting. But wow, there are like 15 different water lilies paintings by Monet!!! I want my painting to be of lotus flowers anywy, because, the lotus flower has very deep meanings in buddhism. The lotus flower is one of the most ancient and deepest symbols of our planet. The lotus flower grows in muddy water and rises above the surface to bloom with remarkable beauty. At night the flower closes and sinks underwater, at dawn it rises and opens again. Untouched by the impurity, lotus symbolizes the purity of heart and mind.

The roots of a lotus are in the mud, the stem grows up through the water, and the heavily scented flower lies pristinely above the water, basking in the sunlight. This pattern of growth signifies the progress of the soul from the primeval mud of materialism, through the waters of experience, and into the bright sunshine of enlightenment.

By the wy, I've been away from the blog because I want to focus in onther things aside from food; a food blog is a beutiful thing to connect with people but it can be a bad thing because you start to obsess about food.
Right now, I want to focus in other things like my sister's wedding, my painting, my job bartending (i'm loving it! :P), etc :P

How was your weekend?

Soy milk

2010-07-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

I was ravenous today, I was so hungry!!!! I had papaya with pecan yogurt and Apple oh's for breakfast.

I ate a delicious bean wrap (corn tortilla, red onions, requeson, salsa) and then I had another bowl of yogurt because I was still hungry!!!
I went out with my friends to our favorite coffee shop and I was happily surprised to see that they had several options of milk, they had whole, skim, lactose-free an soy!! before you could only have whole milk so I used to order my chai tea-lattes with water only. I guess it wasn't a latte anymore :P :S I had a large coffee with cinnamon and soy milk . It was huge so now I can't sleep but totally worth it! It had so much foam and the soy milk had a slight vanilla flavor, I was in heaven ;)

Later we went to Subway for dinner and I had a veggie salad with avocado. nd now I just had a cup of tea because I was getting hungry again :P

This is are some old photographs of my and my friends. :) i didn't take any pics today but I will post some soon becuse this year we are making a party to celebrate that we have known each other for 10 years! I can't believe it's been a decade since I met this wonderful girls, i love them to dead :)

(recognize me in the pics? hehe)

Moderation

2010-07-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

This moderation thing is good! I had a great day today, not stressing about my food choices.
I woke up a little late because I got to bed late watching the movie "Remember me" with Rob Pattinson. It was very good actually! I was dubious because, well, I'm not a fan, I thought he was a bad actor because I kind of hate the Twilight saga, but he is amazing in this movie! I'm about to go buy my Team Edward shirt, y'all, I'm in love!

My sister said I looked a bit like Emile De Ravin, she said our bodies were the same. I told her she was nuts because I think she's gorgeous and very skinny and she said I had the same body. It's weird how we have a very different image of ourselves in our head, right?
I had cheerios with apple for breakfast. Later I snacked on some papaya and went for a run. I had a tuna salad for lunch and a coffee with a cookie. Then I went shopping (i only bought a magazine) with a friend and snacked on green tea and trail mix. I had another salad for dinner (this time with beans and guacamole).
I find it very difficult to run in this heat and hummidity :S I'm seriously thinking about joining a gym for the rest of the summer to work out somewhere with AC!! I think I could have fun in a spinning class or body combat class, what do you think?

I came home from the mall very inspired and I made some outfits on www.polyvore.com

thoughts?

I'm so done

2010-07-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

I'm so done with this "diet". I was just restricting and counting calories again, not good!!! and then I had a piece of bread in front of me and all hell broke loose! i couldnt contain myself.
I'm going to keep track here of what i eat and eat moderately, thats it, no diets. wish me luck :D

shit

2010-07-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

I feel like such a failure. I eat to much junk food :S my dress still fits but still, i feel bloated and i want to be in my best shape for the wedding. Tomorrow Im going to be on my best behavior, NO FUCKING EXCUSES!!!i feel like such a loser always saying the same, but you know, my dad said i was too skinny (not truth, but he is obsessed with gym-carved bodies) so i started to eat more. I don't want to eat less, i just want to eat better. Lose some belly fat and gain muscle in my legs. And for that i know i need more protein!!! so south beach it will be, but no more excuses and make it for real.

On another topic, today was a good day at the restaurant because I got to bartend and i learned to make cool drinks =D

by the way i searched for "bartender girl" in google and this is the only pic i found that isn't naughty)

so tomorrow!! im kicking my butt running amd south beaching until i have AnnaLynne's McCord body. I mean look at her, tiny waist and bigger legs than I do.

okay im kidding, i don't neccesarily want to have her body BUT I JUST FEEL SO BLOATED and my stomach problems are killing me!!! i need to eat healthier and cut back on grains a bit to help my tummy troubles.

South beach fail

2010-07-20T22:58:00.000-07:00

Okay this is so embarrasing hahahahahahah I was doing so good with my diet and then this!
my mom's bday is today and she made enchiladas (red enchiladas, her favorite dish) and of course i ate two of them. I couldn't say no, it was her bday! I didn't fry the tortillas though. And I filled them with cottage cheese instead of regular cheese to cut back on the fat.

I've noticed that american people make different enchiladas than mexican people do, so I want to share with you my mother's recipe for Mexican Red Enchiladas. There are different types of enchiladas in Mexico, they can be green, red, mole enchiladas, potosinas, suizas, etc. the most common are filled with cheese.

Ingredients:
For the chili sauce:

4 chiles anchos, dried
4 chiles rojos, dried
1 cinnamon stick
1 piece of dark chocolate
1 clove of garlic
A teaspoon of sugar.
Saltines or a tablespoon of flour to thicken.

Tortillas
Oil for frying.
Shredded cheese with chopped onions.

First, you have to boil the 5 first ingredients for the sauce. Then you blend them with the water you boiled them in, sugar and flour, until the mix is smooth. You can strain the sauce until is very smooth.
Put the sauce in a new pan and heat it. Add saltto taste.

Fry the tortillas. Dip them in the chili sauce until they are well covered, put them in a plate and fill them with the cheese. Cover with more cheese and microwave until the top cheese melts.
Serve them with cold sour cream on top. Sometimes you can fill them with ground beef, chicken, or beans.

Usual side dishes for enchiladas are rice, beans, and a simple lettuce salad.

Enjoy your very authentic mexican enchiladas! :)

So, tomorrow is a new day and I'll start over again. I can give up people!!!!

I ate so much :(

2010-07-17T21:56:00.000-07:00

Omg, i really hate to be one of those bloggers that feel guilty after they eat so much, and be triggering to someone, or whatever but that is just what it is :( im sorry guys, for those of you who read, but my sister just had another bridal shower full of delicious food and i ate A LOT. I wish I was like all those girl who eat a lot and feel no shame at all but I am not. I guess thats because i was once fat. Ive got a lot of food porn for you anyways :)
First we started the evening with plenty of cosmos, and carrot, cucumber and jicama sticks as snacks. My dad made the drinks, how cool is that?

Then, on the menu was some kind of pork meat with red chile sauce, but pork is not my cup of tea so I went on with the other dishes:
Frijoles charros (bean stew with turkey sausages, ham, chorizo, onions and chile)

Arroz de boda (White rice with rajas (green chile cutlets), cheese, onion)

A delicious salad with pineapple.

And for dessert, peaches and cream!

Im going to start the south beach diet tomorrow because im afraid i wont fit into my bridesmaid dress. I will blog all about it!!!
The South Beach diet goes something like this: First week, you can-t have any carbs, except for vegetables. Second week you can have fruit and whole grains. You can eat all the veggies, lean protein and healthy fats that you want. I have make it before with good results. I want to try it again, i have three weeks before the wedding, what do you think?? Im tired of excuses, I want to be in top shape for my sisters wedding :)
I wll blog everyday for the first week because its the hardest. I need support¡¡

I'll eat sunshine and crap rainbows :)

2010-07-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes food stress me so much I wish I could really eat sunshine and crap rainbows. Seriously that would be so much fun hhahahah
Anyways, yesterday I ate at work since I didn't have time to eat at home and I ordered the veggie sushi. It was sooooo delicious! It had cucumber, carrot, avocado and cream cheese. Very fresh and delicious.

I still have no ice so I had to eat cereal again. I want my green monster :)
Im listening to lady gaga's bad romance. Best song ever!

No ice.

2010-07-15T10:21:00.000-07:00

I didn't have ice today for my green monster. Ice in my smoothie is a must have because i make it with green tea. So i couldn't have a green smoothie today but i came up with an amazing breakfast :)
A bowl of chopped apple with cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg and this guys:

which one do you prefer? I added a little of both, with cold milk of course. I also hve a cup of coffee like I always do.

Yesterday I got a call from my ex. WTF? we haven't talked since we broke up and he eliminated me from his facebook friends and his msn contacts. He said he just wnted to make sure I was okay nd that I could always count on him if I ever had a problem or whatever. I said okay and that was that. I felt...mmmm I'm not even sure. Apparentely he's out of town and he'll be out of town for a few months, That was sort of a relief because now I don't have to worry about running into him randomly. Anyways I don't want to be his friend. It's still too raw.

Yesterday I went to a concert.We parked really far away and Ia walked a lot.

Today I'm going to an actual yoga class. I've never been to one but I'm confident I won't make a total fool of myself because I've been doing the yogadownloads.com classes.
Have a nice day :)

Enter to Win a Tofu xpress!!

2010-07-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

The Voracious Vegan is hosting a Giveaway for a Tofu xpress. If you think Tofu is a mushy white gunk with no flavor think again!! With a tofu spress you can press tofu and marinate it and give it a delicious flavor!! make tons of recipes like this:

head over to the giveaway right now!!

Life and death

2010-07-12T15:54:00.000-07:00

I just got a call that aguy I knew from junior high died :( he battled with cancer for 3 years. I haven't seen him in a long time but still is sad. he was my age :( really puts everything in perspective

I'm back!

2010-07-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

Hey girls!! I'm out of the gutter, so to speak...all the troubles are dealt with, hopefully.
I've been so stressed I've been eating more than usual... and not very healthy stuff. And I've been eating wheat too.. and now i'm also dealing with pms and i feel so bloated :S but tomorrow is monday and is a great day to start a new plan!!!!

green monsters for breakfast (i've been good t this point)
salads for dinner
fruit for snacks
running 4x a week and yoga 3x a week (at least)
no wheat!!!!

I'm decided to do this! I need to be in my best shape for my sister's wedding. I was actually doing very well until the shit hit the fan on thursday night. Stress took charge of me and wracked up my good behavior :( Yesterday I went out with my friends to a party and had some drinks. Light beer and vodka soda. then I came home and had a second dinner : I needed to relax though, no shame.

My life

2010-07-09T13:42:00.000-07:00

My life is so fucking weird :S seriously guys it's not even fun anymore, I don't know WTF is even going on right now :S any ways I'm going through a hard time, (not ED related)so maybe I won't be posting much details these days until this shit is over. It's sort of personal I hope you understand if I don't post anything about it.

Today I went to have breakfast and they took over an hour!!! to serve it. I was starving by the time i ate. I had an omelette with cottage cheese and a biscuit. I admit I have been eating wheat, I have been eating less than I used to but I still eat :S I want to quit for good!!!!!

here are some pics of pretty food I found.

chanel cupcakes, pink oreos and ice cream & sprinkles.

My camera sucks!

2010-07-08T12:19:00.000-07:00

My camera really sucks. I have trouble dowloading the pics to my laptop. I don't know if its my camera or my damn computer that's just old.!!!

I went on a speed run. Only 45 minutes but at a higher speed that I usually do. I had a green monster for breakfast and sushi and spinach salad for lunch.

I did yoga yesterday in my garden and the mosquitoes killed me!! I have mosquito bites all over me!!! I also went on another walk with my mom. The plan was to walk for 2 hours but after an hour we had to go home becuse I had to pee :( it was good anyways. I'm getting ready for work. It's getting more boring each day!!
I'll try to upload my pics one more time when I get home!

Great day.

2010-07-07T11:32:00.000-07:00

I had a great day yesterday. I ran, did 15 minutes of yoga, and cleaned all my closet!! I didn't even know I had some of those clothes! Then I went out with some friends. We went to listen to music and smoke (mm not tobacco if you know what I mean)...I don't smoke often but sometimes I just need too. I probably do it about 3 times a year. Do you guys smoke?
Then we went to the fair and I had the most amazing baked potato for dinner. It was filled with rajas (green chile cutlets) and cheese. I'll post pics later!!

I haven't worked out yet today, but I went to run some errands with my mom. We went walking so I got a little work out!!

I had a green smoothie today for breakfast. And I just ate a bowl of rice and beans and I'm getting ready for work. Plans include yoga and maybe another walk. And I'll post yesterday pics later too :)

Stressed out

2010-07-06T09:32:00.000-07:00

OMG I am so fucking stressed right now, my mother and my sister are fighting like crazy people downstairs. I understand they re both under lot of pression and stress from the wedding and stuff, but they are both saying hurtful things and I know they'll both regret it later =S I don't even know what to do, I guess nothing, right? is not my business but at the same time it is...well whatever, on to my stuff...

Yesterday went really well, I got almost all of the stuff on my to- do list check out :) I went out for a delicious 8 mile run, did all my laundry and went out with a friend. We went to see the movie "Where the Wild Things Are". I don't know how I feel about it... it was good but I expected more. Have you guys seen it? My friend said that all the monsters were part of the kid's personality, that all the monsters were the kid exceptfor K.W., that represented the kid's mom and the owl, that were the mom's boyfriends. I don't know, it was cool but maybe I expected something more bizarre.

After the movie we went out for sushi. We ordered tempura ice cream aferwards!! I've never tried tempura ice-cream before. It's basically fried ice cream. Sounds gross?? have you tried it?

I didn't practice yoga though, I was a bit tired after I got home. So today, I don't have a specific to-do list to get done, but I hope to run and do yoga. I started my day with a green monster made with spinach, green tea, papaya, and half a scoop of chocolate protein powder.!

have a nice day :)

New goals !

2010-07-05T09:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a sad day, I was so effing depressed and I don't even know why! All I could think about was my ex boyfriend and how happy he must be without me and whatever... I don't know, maybe is the weather? is really getting to me, all these gray,cloudy days!

Anyways, is a new day and a new beggining! I want to share with you guys some new goals I have. I have one more month of vacations and I want to live it to the fullest! However, my disorganization gets the best of me! I am lazy all morning and then hurry up to work out before going to my job, and then come home exhausted and eat a carb-heavy dinner, and then spend a lot of time on my laptop, doing nothing productive, and going to sleep very late. Therefore I wake up late, and the cycle repeats again.No time or energy to do important things like a)partying! b)laundry c)blog d)eating light and full of nutrition! I swear to you guys, every morning I have the intention of having a green monster for breakfast and I end up eating bread and coffee because I am to lazy to get out my blender!

So I plan to blog every morning my to-do list, because I want to make this blog more personal and tell you all about my life! I don't know if anyone will be interested in reading, but I want some place to write like is my journal and I think this blog could be it. I remember when I was little I used to have one of those cute little journals with a little lock! But a blog is much more fun because I get to meet a lot of new great people like you guys :) and post pics and stuff!
my new goals are this:

a) Go to sleep early so I can wake up full of energy!
b) Have a green monster for breakfast everyday.
c) Practice yoga every morning in my garden, and then run.
d) Not complain about my job because I wanted to work there so badly and now all I do is whine.
e) Go out with my friends more, and spending time with my sister because she's getting married soon!
f) Blog everyday.
g) Quit wheat and artificial sweetners for good!!!!

So there you go guys! That's pretty much it.

Today I had green monster :) it had half a frozen banana, a cup of green tea, italian salad mix (i promise to get spinach soon!), an almond and half a scoop of chocolate protein powder.

(by the way this isn't my green monster, i got the pic from ohsheglows)

My plans for today is:

yoga and running
laundry
grocery shopping
going out with friends

So im off to it!!! see you guys later have an awesome day :)

I don't know

2010-07-03T14:03:00.000-07:00

I don't know how you guys manage to post regularly... I can't...i've been eating like a crazy person! all good, clean food, but still, a lot of it! Is that bad? i don't know, i just been so hungry!

In other knews, I ran out of spinach so I've been making my green monsters with the italian style salad mix i bougth...is a mix of lettuce, dandelion, radish...it doesn't taste bad, but i don't know if it has the same benefits as spinach?

The state Fair started and you know what that means?? lots of food!!!!!! mostly corn, jicama with cili, strawberrys with cream...

I'm very exhausted and I don't know what it is... maybe is because I'm on my feet all day at work? I don't know but the weather isn't helping, I used to love rainy, cloudy days, but they are so draining!

In other news, I got a tattoo!

And I also started practicing yoga, with yogadownloads.com, The 20 minute classes are for free and they are perfect to complement my running routines. I also need something to strenghten my abs, because for the life of me I can't do a fucking push up, I find them sooooo boring!!! I always start new routines or videos, but I get bored right away...

Confession

2010-06-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

Confession: I have not eaten a whole Oreo cookie in years. They are not a regular treat, but if I want one, depending on the phase I'm going through, I'll eat only the middle (if I'm going through a "no carbs allowed" phase) or if I'm in a fat-fearing phase, I'll scrape off the cream. But anyway, they are not often. I used to love them and I dunked them in peanut butter. Back in the days when I was fat.

2010-06-27T16:53:00.000-07:00

Mexico just lost against Argentina in the World Cup =( im too sad to talk about it so I'm going to show you what i've been eating those last few days away!!

First off, travel food!!! 12 hours in the car calls for constant snacking, and I had plenty, as well as plenty of water because it was as hot as hell!
Before we left I started my morning with my usual cup of coffee and an oatmeal cookie. In the car I snacked on some turkey slices and a tupperware salad (with Subway's Italian Dressing) I packed. I tried to keep it healthy but I must admit I had baked Cheeto's and corn chips. I had a burrito for dinner.

Next day I had to be up at 5 am!! How awful is that!! The hotel had complimentary breakfast so I had some coffee and fruit salad with milk before we left at 7 am. It was too early to keep anything in my stomach but I had to eat something because I knew there was some time before my next meal! We ate at Denny's. Can I just say I'm not a fan of Denny's?? They didn't let me choose the side dishes I wanted, and everything is too big, and everything is buttered and I don't know, I just felt plain gross eating there... maybe that's my old ED talking? anyway, I tried to make the best of it and ordered the Senior Starter. I chose it because it was small, but they didn't let me have turkey bacon with it! I had to choose from regular bacon or sausage link. GROSS. I picked the sausage but I didn't eat it. It also came with toast and papaya. It wouldn't be so bad if they had let me order turkey bacon..

We had dinner at a spectacular mexican restaurant. It was so pretty!! My family ordered agallitas which is, believe it or not, cow intestines!! YUCK x10!!!

I didn't eat that OF COURSE, im grossed out even thinking about it but they said it was delish and ate the intestine tacos with pico de gallo and salsa.
They also ordered flautas also called tacos dorados or fried tacos, to share. I had a bite or two they were delicious!

For my entree I had the crispy salad with chicken and cilantro dressing. It came with two fried crispy tortillas underneath, which I didn't eat. The salad was spinach and greens, and it had goat cheese! I loved it, it was my first time eating goat cheese. The dressing was very good also, but the chicken was awful. Very thick and dry. I ate only about 1/4 of it. I don't like chicken anyway but everytime I am eating with my dad he's giving me shit about not eating meat.

To drink I had mineral water...

and a few sips of my dad's Mango Margarita...

And a very tasty mango & chamoy frappe

refreshing and delicious!!

Well that's it lovies i don't have any more food pics from my trip! hehe but that's the more interesting stuff...

Follow me on Twitter!!!

2010-06-22T20:53:00.001-07:00

Hey guys!! I'm out of town for a few days so I won't be updating... follow me on Twitter!!

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If you could only eat three things for the rest of your life...

2010-06-21T09:54:00.000-07:00

I would choose coffee:

Fruit popsicles:

and cake icing!!! hehe

Of course I would really miss fruit (specially papaya and apples!) and veggies, and chocolate! but if I had to choose...

What would you choose if you could only eat 3 things for the rest of your life?

I'm back!!

2010-06-20T17:24:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, who are y'all? I haven't posted in a while because I have so much work!! I go out very late and come back home EXHAUSTED! there is too much to tell!! First of all I'm so happy because Mexico won 2-0 vs. France in the fifa world cup! :D anyone else is following the World Cup?

Second, I'm so PISSED OF!!!!! after all the trouble I went through to lighten my hair, is dark brown again =( want to know what happened? I was too cheap to go to an expert stylist hehe so I went to a Sally store and told the girl working there I wanted a dark ash blonde. So I bought what she gave me and my hair turned out GREEN!!!!!! fucking GREEN!!!!!!! i was shocked and I had to dye it dark brown =( so sad . My mom says I look better with brown hair and that my eyes look greener, but I really miss the perks of being blonde. People really treat you better when you are blonde. I don't know why. xD

all i wanted was dark ash blonde hair =(

Third, rain season is here!!!! I love rainy days :) I love running in the rain or satying home watching the rain pour :P

And lastly, I passed my french exam!! I was so worried the teacher would give us all a bad grade because France lost the match :P hahahahaha

Have a lovely sunday!!! :) We are having a carne asada at my home to celebrate Father's Day. That means chiles rellenos (stuffed green chiles) and guacamole for me, since I don't eat meat!!

Two more links I love and wanted to share from CSL!

2010-06-14T23:43:00.000-07:00

The Missing Piece: Spirituality | Crazy Sexy Life
Practical Magic | Crazy Sexy Life

Health Challenges: Ten Tips for Happiness | Crazy Sexy Life

2010-06-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

Health Challenges: Ten Tips for Happiness | Crazy Sexy Life

My sister's getting married!!

2010-06-12T20:52:00.001-07:00

So my mom made her a bridal shower!! Loads of mexican food, plus cake. OMG!!! haha
pics soon!

By the way, click here right now to meet MY future husband!! he's like my dream guy, seriously. He is a vegetarian, musician, yogini, activist...my ideal guy.

Tofu

2010-06-10T10:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I did something I hadn't done in at least 4 months: I binged. I feel really bloated and gross, but I don't want to keep on thinking about that so let's move on.

I also did my first tofu scramble :) I must say it was pretty good!!! I used extra firm silken tofu, scrambled with zucchini and tomato sauce. I sprinkled some black pepper and salt on top and it was delicious!! Sorry, no pics!

I'm not working at the same restaurant anymore. Now I'm working at a japanese restaurant. Both restaurants have the same owners so they moved me.It's further away from my house, but It's cool though.

What a weekend

2010-06-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

I never thought my job would be so exhausting!!! I've had pretty low energy all week :S maybe the fact that i spend so much time on my laptop when i should be sleeping has something to do with it?
On friday I went out of the workplace at 11 pm and then I went to get sushi with some friends! I was in a desperate need of something alcoholic hehe so I ordered two nigiris and a vodka tonic. A very Healthy dinner I think :P

On saturday I got some blood work done to check my thyroid hormones, and everything seems ok :D I worked all day and then I went to see the Prince of Persia. OMG jake Gyllenhaal is sooooo hot!!!!! I also loved Gemma Arterton's performance, but if I was her I wouldn't have done two epic movies in a row (she was in Clash of the Titans) she's very tanned in the prince of persia and looks gorgeous! I wish I had her tiny nose hehe :P

Sunday at work was as boring as it gets and I snacked my way through it. I had coffee, a banana, some hershey's dark chocolate kisses, etc...I went to a friend's house tow atch the MTV movie awards. Did you see them? I think the host was so funny! I loved him!!! I hated that Twilight won so many awards. I liked Avatar waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better. OMG and Sandra Bullock!! I was so happy for her I got teary eyed! I love her!!!!! she's my favorite actress ever! Oh and I hated, hated Xtina Aguilera's performance. So tacky!!

My tummy is giving me trouble again, although I'm avoiding wheat!!! I hate it :( I'm thinking of cutting grains altogether. Do you know if corn has gluten?? I've been eating a lot of corn: tortillas, corn flakes. I was seriously limitng my carbs and eating nuts instead but it was giving me acne so I'm back eating cold cereal and tortillas. What do you guys think? Could that be causing my tummy troubles?

How was your weekend lovies? Did you watched the Mtv Awards? what do you think?

I am pooped!!

2010-06-01T20:34:00.000-07:00

OMG, am i tired right now!!
After a well deserved restful and absolutely fun weekend, and a very boring monday (although i went on a long, delicious run), tuesday came and im totally pooped!
I started my morning with a delicious Green Monster, this time it was a little bit different because I used chocolate powder and I added papaya.
The color of this green monster was not the prettiest hehe, but it tasted alright!

I also had a maizcrudo. I've blogged about them before, they are my favorite cookies ever! The word maizcrudo means "raw corn" and even though they are not raw, they are amazing. They are made with blue corn. I'm pretty sure there is no wheat in them! hehe

I went to the dermatologist but they had cancelled my appointment and they hadn't tell me!!! I was pissed, but i took deep breaths. Then I went on my run and it was fantastic. I came home and had a huge, huge salad.

Then I got ready for my first day of work!!! I'll be a hostess in a mexican restaurant called Los Agaves. I was so happy to get this job :D i usually get bored on summers and now my best friend is going away to the beach =( i was thrilled to get the job :D but wearing heels for 4 hours, after running 9 miles is TORTURE! i'll wear flats tomorrow!
And I just had a lovely dinner of sushi, carrot&pineapple salad and spearmint iced tea. I'm tired but happy :)

Wheat-free

2010-05-31T13:28:00.000-07:00

I'm so thrilled, I'm out of school and free!! welcome to the pressureless lifestyle, hell yeah :D One of our teachers bought our class a cake. Is called Impossible Cake or flan-cake, because the bottom part is chocolate cake and the top is "flan". I don't know how to say flan in english, but it's like creme de caramel? custard? i'm not sure, but if you have eaten it, can you please enlighten us, which is the english word for "flan"?

I carefully avoided the cake, because of the wheat!

I'm a little sad because two of my friends are going to the beach to work!!! how awesome is that??? i'm so happy for them =D i wish i could go as well.

I've been wheat-free since friday. To all of you who are wheat free, do you go through a detox phase or something? I expected to see results right away, but my tummy troubles continue. How long does it take until things start to get better? help me please! hehe

I went to a concert on saturday. It was a lot of fun.

Epic !

2010-05-26T22:06:00.000-07:00

Today I ate my weight in baguettes with butter, tequila sunrise and margarita's. With a few cron chips thrown in for good measure.

Let's go back to the morning. Today we had to "make a restaurant" in one of my classes. Two of my classmates were clients and the rest of us had to do the work: some of us cooked, some were waitresses and the other one was the hostess. I had to be one of the waitress. The two girls that were supposed to be clients were sooo bitchy!!! they kept sending the drinks back and requesting stuff they knew were NOT on the menu, and they knew it because we had prepared the menu with them. So they sent back a lot of food because they didn't like it, and at the end they didn't even helped us clean up the mess: so not cool!!! the good thing was that we got to eat everything that was left. I haven't had baguettes in such a long time. It was epic! we left class a little drunk (maybe more than a little drunk...) due to all the rejected drinks we consumed. Hey, wasting food (and drinks) is a sin!

Damn!

2010-05-24T19:24:00.000-07:00

Mexico just lost in a soccer match against England... bummer!!!!! by the way, only in the USA futbol (as we call it) is called "soccer". Everywhere else in the world is called football or futbol!!

I'm sure most of you drool over Beckham but I don't like him...i'm probably one of the few women on the planet that don't have a crush on David Beckham? I like these guys better:

Oh yeah! mexican hotties! hahahahha

This weekend I felt like I could eat as much as I wanted because I tried on the dress I'm wearing for my sister's wedding and it was big on me! I guess those weeks of little eating due to my depression were paying off :S so i took it as an excuse to indulge in stuff I wouldn't normally eat.

Brownie and ice cream, raspados, guacamole and chips, candied pecans and corn with chili powder and mayo!
Everything was consumed with delight but now my tummy feels awful :( this week will be a super clean eating week! it was worth it though! But my stomach is so easily upset and irritated. i'll try to go wheat free for a week to see how I feel.
Today I had green tea and an apple for breakfast, a cup of coffee before lunch, salad and chicken for lunch and a green monster after my run (8.3 miles ^^). I don't know what I'll be having for dinner, I'm starving!

I have a shit load of homework. My french teacher made us a surprise test today. So unfair!!!!
I have to finish a paper, see you guys tomorrow!

Late night tacos!!

2010-05-22T17:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went out with my friends for the first time in a while. First we went to get some coffee...

I ordered a frappuccino with splenda and skim milk. I was trying to behave, but then! one of my friends ordered this exquisite piece of cake, inspired by tiramisú.

It was scrumptious! absolutely delicious. At the end they gave us some chocolate covered coffee beans, very good as well!
We drove around, listening to music and then we got to meet one of my friends new kitten! It was so lovely!!!! I want a kitty right now ! hehe

Isn't he the cuttest, tiniest cat you've ever seen! I think he is!
Then everybody got hungry and wanted tacos.It was midnight, but what the heck? So we went for them! I didn't want any tacos so I went to town on the grilled onions and peppers! Is not as if I was going to kiss anybody at the end of the night so i didn't care much for onion-breath! :P

And then everybody wanted to go check out the new tattoo studio some of my friends just opened, and have a few drinks, but I was very tired and I got kindda sad suddenly so I went home. I know, I'm so lame!!!

How was your friday lovies???

Today I woke up, had some fruit cereal and coffee for breakfast, went for a 7 mile run, and refueled with a huge green monster and a spoonful of nutella!

Then I went to get my hair done...again!!! I wanted to look ash blonde this time but they came up with some sort of brown thing, I don't know I might go back to black soon, I'm getting annoyed!! They always take for ever and it's never the right color! I came home starving and had an awesome salad and a huge mango with chili powder :) made my tummy very happy :)

I don't know what I'm doing later, I was supposed to go to a bday party of one of the girls that went to the retreat with me but I don't know if I'm going because it's one of my aunt's bday too and we might go to dinner to her house.
What are your plans for the rest of the weekend?

I'm back!!

2010-05-20T11:39:00.000-07:00

Hi girls!! I hope you missed me... hehe okay, probably just 3 people read my blog or something but anyways... I'm back from my retreat!!! It was so wonderful!!! I mean, it was very hard at times, they woke us up at 6 am and we went to sleep probably at 11 pm or something, and we had to do lots of stuff, and a lot of praying and things I'm not very accostumed to since I'm not a practicing catholic or any religion for that matter...
But I got to meet 75 wonderful girls that really supported me and offered me their true friendship and I feel a lot, lot better. I cried more in the past week than I've ever cried in my life! I feel like I won't be able to shed another tear again!
The first day they took away our cellphones, watches, ipods, etc.. and all my pills, razor blades, scissors and shoe laces (i guess they thought i was suicidal!) and we spent the day getting to know each other and talking. They also were some comic performances with positive messages.
The second day i was so ready to quit!!! I was sharing a room with 6 other girls and one bathroom. I felt awful! I just wanted to go and they made us attend to mass and pray and chant. I wanted to get the heck out of there! I was literally blaspheming and calling for Zeus, Buddha, Alá or any god to save me! (Ok, I understand this might be disrespectful, and I'm sorry if I offended anyone, is just the way I felt. I felt trapped and I was willing to pray to Superman to get me out of there.)
But the third and fourth day were totally worth it. I understood the loving message Jesuschrist gave us, I bonded with all my sisters and I learned to appreciate my parents and my blessings a lot more. I still believe in a Buddhist philosophy for my life, but Jesus is all about love and I welcomed him in my heart as well!

Another thing I truly enjoyed of my stay in there was the fact that we didn't have time to worry about our looks, our makeup, our clothes, or our food! It was very weird to have 3 meals a day, instead of my usual 5 mini-meals, and having someone else prepare all your food, and having very little options! It was very hard for me because I don't eat red meat or chicken, and I stay away from carbs, and several times they served us a meat dish, and since I couldn't eat it, I had to fill up on rice or tortillas!
But food in there is viewed only as nourishment to have strenght for the day ahead, and although it was very hard for me to eat all those things, it was also liberating!

Anyway, after this experience, my food-related posts will be back very soon, I promise!

I'm going away!!

2010-05-12T20:02:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! Thanks for all your kind words and break-up advice! Unfortunately, nothing is really helping. I feel really bad. I just want to escape from the world. I can't even pronounce his name without feeling tears clouding my eyes. :S
Tomorrow at 3pm i'm going to a spiritual retirement. I'll be there until sunday afternoon! It's being held in a catholic convent... it's so weird i've never felt like I could relate to any church.I was raised catholic and I believe in god, and I believe Jesus existed, but I also believe that Buddha existed and I really relate to the Buddhist philosophy and the different forces of the universe and I must admit sometimes I find myself praying to a "goddess" (Kali, Gaia, the great mother,you know..) However, I just really feel like I need this right now. Im signing in because they are taking away my cell phone and my lap top and I won't have contact with the outside world for 3 days. Right now that idea just feels...glorious!!!

So...I'll probably post back un sunday to see how everything went. I'm sending you all big hugs and lots of love and rainbows and positive energy ! :) unditl sunday lovies!!

It's over.

2010-05-09T21:23:00.000-07:00

It was bound to happen.
Yesterday I decided I was going to go out, enjoy life, relax, forget about my drama, etc. I got all dolled up and went to one of my friend's bday party, I was having a good time, the music was great, I was enjoying myself, and then... I started drinking, had a little too much vodka, and soon I was calling my now "ex"...

He went to my friend's house, we got into a big fight, and it's all over :( for good :(
The thing is, I don't regret anything I said.don't regret anything that happened last night. I know I shouldn't have drinked and I shouldn't have called him at 1 am to "talk", but I been holding my feelings for far too long and I didn't say anything that didn't need to be said. It's over for good. I cried all night long, I couldn't sleep, and today I feel like a fucking zombie. I couldn't get out of bed until 2 pm or something like that. My eyes are all swollen up from crying.
I deactivated my facebook account because i could not stand the thought to change my status to "single". I know that sounds stupid but somehow, if it's on facebook it feels more real, you know? And I don't feel like dealing with the questions right now. It's far too soon. I feel like shit. I dont know how to get over this. I know I have too and I am peaceful with myself because I know I gave everything, and I put my whole heart into the relationship and now I must let go.he is a wonderful person but we were just not right for each other.

Buddhist Wisdom

2010-05-08T14:56:00.000-07:00

I just realized I can't do this anymore. I can't wait forever until the situation with my boy fixes up.I'm exhausted, I've been eating less and less, I can't sleep. I can't do it anymore. I love him, but I'm not the only one who needs help, he could use some help too you know? he has issues. But that's beside the point, really. What I really need to do is let go. I'm letting everything in the hands of god. really. I can't keep using "visualization" and "positive thinking" to try to force stuff to happen. I'm really going to let go now, and trust that anything that happens is for the best.

I read a passage from my book of Buddhism and it really hit home. It ringed a bell in me that needed to be ringed. I've read it before, but sometimes we forget the most precious jewels of wisdom.

Anitya: "All existence and phenomen in this world are changing constantly and do not remain the same for even a single moment.Everything has to die or end somewhere in the future and that perspective is the very cause of suffering. This concept, however, should not be interpreted in a pessimistic way, since both advancement and reproduction are also manifestations of this constant change."

"...there's nothing that can be called an "ego" and there is no such thing as "mine" in the whole world"

I'm in peace. really. Come what may. Everything will be for the best because I trust in the wisdom of the great universe god/goddess.

Hair

2010-05-07T16:24:00.000-07:00

My hair has been getting more and more orange-y (again!) over the weeks. Not quite as orange as before but not ash-y anymore! It looks something like this now.

I love this movie by the way!.

Today we performed a japanese tea ceremony in the class room. It was lovely! I took pics with one of my friend's camera, I will post them when I get them!

Gorgeous dresses.

2010-05-05T19:36:00.000-07:00

If someone told me six months ago I'd be losing my appetite and crying myself to sleep over my bf.... Omg i just can't believe it... i really can't.
Whatever.
I really don't want to mention what I've been eating since it could be triggering for some. And it's really not interesting. The most interesting thing I've had is a salad from a buffet I went today with my parents. I also went for a REAL green tea frapuccino (not my healthified version) with one of my girls.

But I have gorgeous dresses I found!!! I'm looking for the perfect dress for my college graduation and my sister's wedding. Tell me what you think :)

I love the pink dress. The other one just came attached to the photo.
I love the one shoulder detail, but I'm not so sure about the silver embroidery. I would like it more in a darker shade of pink than the dress.

I love Gwen's style. She always looks perfect.

Sienna and Jude are back together? OMG! hahah she looks gorgeous. I really like her style. She looks a bit bony but still beautiful.And the dark blue dress? I think it looks so classy and would look good in me with my new orange-y hair.

I wished I looked more latin like Zoe or Rosario Dawson. They are soo beautiful!!! But I think I got more of the irish-spanish blood on my mom's side. I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I do look latin and sometimes I don't. I have the blackest hair, pale skin and green eyes but my features are definitely latin. And I guess I can tan very easily even though I'm pale, so I guess that's the mexican blood speaking!

How about you? Do you have mixed blood too? Most mexican people have mixed ancestry (i don't know if it's the right word?), since our country was "colonized" by Spain in 1520. And then there was immigration from everywhere. My mom's grandparents where from Spain and her great grand-parents were from Ireland. I think there's some african blood somewhere, since I have uncles with huge afros. I really don't know!

So what dress is your favorite? and do you have mixed ancestry (or however that's called)?

Law of attraction

2010-05-03T23:18:00.000-07:00

Today I didn't have class and I was supposed to go out with my friends but all of them cancelled (one of them has to move out of her house, so she was packing, the other had a surprise visit from her bf from out of town, the other had her phone line cut out and i don't remember what happened to the other one hehe) So I had to make other plans with myself! It didn't really suck but I was really looking forward to be with my girls and hear their advice on my boy drama and have a drink or two (or three :P)

I woke up with no appetite and no desire to eat, at all. I had some papaya and coffee and that was that. Usually I graze all morning when I'm at home but not today. I went for a run and knocked out 8.7 miles. It felt so good! I came home and there was like no food in the house :( I fixed a plate with all the tiny little leftovers I could find in the fridge: zucchini soup, beans, scrambled eggs and I loaded it with light sour cream and salsa. This probably sounds gross. It wasn't. I finished some homework and read blogs.

I had to do a bunch of laundry, so I got to it and while the washer and dryer did it thing I layed pool side eating fruit pop sicles and reading Yoga Journal. I love that magazine! But I must confess I have never practiced yoga in my life. Ever. I can't wait to find a good yoga studio! It would be the perfect activity for tuesdays and thursdays (and the weekends), when I take a break from running to rest my joints, now that I can't swim because my hair would turn green.

Even if I felt sad, it was very relaxing, just sitting there barefoot conecting with mother earth, with the clean, fresh, smell of the pool surrounding me and the bamboo trees moving with the breeze. I was peaceful.
You know, I actually feel better accepting I feel sad, letting the sadness soak me completely, than trying to numb that emotion by eating or drinking, or over-exercising or whatever, and then feeling worse afterwards because of that. I'm aknowledging my pain.I think it's better than denying yourself to it. I'm not saying that you should lay in bed feeling pain and feeling sorry for yourself, but accept you feel bad, and then go ahead and do the stuff you need to do. The to-do list was actually very helpful because it has helped me ground and focus on practical stuff that needs to get done, rather than just go over and over the situation and wasting my time on my lap top or watching trashy reality shows and eating a whole box of cereal trying to forget I feel like shit.

For dinner I had a salad with romain lettuce, tomato, jicama and creamy guacamole as dressing. So good!!!

And now I'm going to do something and I'm a little embarrased, but it must be done! You know the situation with my boyfriend has been getting me down, and really depressed.. I believe in the law of attraction and I'm throwing this out to the universe!! I have faith. Please, please, send me all of your good vibes, I really need them!

I'm here by declaring that I am not sad anymore because we'll be together again by saturday (our 6 month anniversary, or month-i-versary or whatever you call it!)

Our situation will work out like this: He is not mad at me anymore. He loves me so much and he can't see his life without me. He understands that I love him. I am able to trust him and open up completely. We can talk for hours and have a good time like we used to. We laugh. We make love. We are together. Our relationship is better than ever. I thank the Universe and the great spirit and all the universal energy for this. Thanks. I'm so grateful and so happy.

OMG i must have totally freaked you out after this but really I'm desperate!! I love him so much!! I know things will workout, I know it. Please send good vibes my way, please!

How was your monday? Do you hate mondays? Do you believe in the law of attraction?
I'm too tired sweet hearts. Have a good night :) sweet dreams and send a little love my way :)

Week-end recap: tears, red polish and chilling out.

2010-05-02T23:55:00.000-07:00

Hey there tutsie pops!!! I'm feeling a little bit better today and I'm back to give you all the details of my highly dramatic weekend!!
Were did I left off? On saturday I woke up and had my usual fruit cereal and coffee. My sister's fianceé family was coming over for lunch ( a carne asada = a barbecue) so I tried to keep it light and not eat too much cuz I knew food with be abundant later! I don't eat meat and I really, really hate the smell of grilled steaks!! the smoke-y smelled of burned dead cow just makes my stomach turn. Sorry if you are meat eaters and I offended you!! The table was full of delicious appetizers and side dishes, anyway.

Chiles rellenos (fire-roasted chile poblano, stuffed with cheese and onion slices).

Two types of guacamole (creamy and chunky).

Chips and totopos (corn chips).

Three types of salsa.
And the main offender!!!

So I ate a little bit earlier so I could get away from the table so I didn't have to smell what everybody else was eating.
I had a tilapia that my mom had wrapped in tin foil and put in the oven. It was very good! I suspect my mom smothered it in butter but it was delicious anyway.

I also had some chips with guacamole and salsa. So good!!! After that I started to chew gum so I didn't eat everything in sight!
This is what everybody else plate's looked like:

Anyway, after I ate, I waited for the boy to go to the movies. We went and we watched Iron Man (I loved it, go see it!!) He was so quiet again. It was so akward. I felt like we were in one of those uncomfortable blind dates. This is NOT how you are supposed to feel in a 6 month relationship, but I guess it's how you feel when you are supposed to be on a "time off" and you go out anyway. When he dropped me by my house it was even weirder, I didn't know what to do, give him a goodnight kiss like I used to? what? I felt like I was with a total stranger. I came back to my room and I cried. Really, I was lying in my bed crying for like 2 hours, just wondering how everything has gone to hell in a few days.
I was supposed to go out with my friends and I couldn't even go, I felt so sad.
The boy texted me later, to see where I was because I had told him I would go out with my friends. He was celebrating one of his friend's bday in a bar and he was telling me about it and asking where I was and everything, but I was very sad and I just answered in monosyllabic words. He got mad and said that he was really trying to make it work but if I didn't want to talk I should tell him straight, even if it was SO hard for me to tell the truth. I was so offended! As if I was such a big lier or something!! I waited until I knew it was time for him to be back home and I called him. We started fighting and he was all over again telling me the same stuff: that I don't trust him, that there is a lot of stuff I don't tell him, etc... So it turns out there was something else. I knew it!!! there had to be something else bothering him, or he wouldn't have brought all the other stuff up. Turns out he saw me talking to my ex on wednesday and he was angry that I haven't told him!! I told him that it had been so unimportant, irrelevant, NOTHING for me that I forgot to mention. But he just doesn't get it. He says that hiding stuff is the same than lying. And he kept talking about how he doesn't know shit about me and that he feels like he doesn't know me and that i'm such a big fucking mistery for him and that when he sees me down and depressed and freaking out he doesn't know what to say to help me because he doesn't know anything about me. Arghh....!!! I didn't know what to say. We talked for hours (i went to bed at 6 am) and we didn't solve squat. So frustrating. Oh by the way I had a zucchini soup for dinner :P I guess I didn't follow no Spinach challenge today booo

Sorry if I bored you with my boyfriend-drama recap!! On saturday I woke up determined not to feel like shit, and determined to get some stuff on my to-do list done!
I had whole wheat bread with orange jam and coffee for breakfast because there was no fruit in the house :(
Then, I finished my french homework and went for a driving lesson. Driving is one of the most stress inducing activities for me! I just feel plain stupid about it, because last summer I went to driving school, took the course (where they teach you how to drive and then test you and give you your licence) and I flunked!! I felt like such a failure! Anyway, I tried to take it easy and just focus on driving. It didn't went so bad :) I ate a chicken salad later. Nothing spectacular. Iceberg lettuce, grilled chicken, cucumber and avocado with mustard dressing. It was huge so I brought the leftovers home for later.

My little nephew's came over (one of my cousin's kids) because friday was dia del niño (children's day) in Mexico and we were celebrating. They brought cake!! gosh, I hate cake!! I mean I don't really hate it, but I like frosting (icing? how do you say it?) so much it's dangerous!!I don't care for the actual cake so much, but I just eat all the icing when nobody's watching and then go and eat all the icing that people left on their plates. That's how addicted I am!!!
Look at that cutie biting on his cake!! :):)

He loved the icing as much as me. Look how he left the cake!

One happy camper!

I love him. He's turning four in a month!

I just chilled by the pool and enjoyed the sun. It was so relaxing, just what I needed! I've got my nails and toenails painted red. I tanned and I felt good!

And I just ate icing and snacked all afternoon and wasn't really hungry for dinner but I had my left over salad and an orange anyways.

I emailed the boy about an hour ago and told him to chill out and that I loved him. Let's see how the story unravels!!
I don't have class tomorrow. I'm so happy!!! I have plans for early boozing with my girls. Totally needed. Perhaps I will get a workout but I don't know. I'm taking it easy!

So how was your weekend tutsi pops? Have you seen Iron Man 2? What makes you feel sexy in a second? For me, is red nail polish and a tan! :)

Chill the eff out!

2010-04-30T23:15:00.000-07:00

Hello honey bunnies! (hehe) TGIF much?

You know I've been feeling down in the dumpster this week. Between french, sociology and art history exams, a 75 pages paper to write and my boyfriend acting all wacko on me, with my very own default insecurities, my eating has been going crazy, and it's been taking all my strenght not to give in to my destructive binge-exercise-binge-repeat tendencies My anxiety is scalating up by the minute. I'm trying to stay calm, but you know? I've never been good at handling stress. I suck at handling stress. I used to handle stress by counting calories, and that resulted in extra stress if my eating wasn't perfect. Now I don't count calories any more but the stress is still there. My jaw hurts from chewing so much gum, I have allergy syntomps that I'm sure is nothing but nerves. But I don't want to get all whiny. I'll share with you my day so I can order my ideas for a bit.

Let's start with yesterday's night. Remember I was supposed to be taking a "time off" with the bf? Well I was having dinner (salad with black beans, red onion and salsa & tea-latte) with my mom and sister when he texted me to see if I wanted to go to the movies tomorrow. It was weird because we were supposed to be in a time off but who knows? I'm très confused!!!
I had an exam first thing in the morning. I sipped on chamomile tea to calm my nerves before the exam. I'm very bad at taking any kind of test or exam you know, I get so nervous!
It went well though. I had breakfast after it. I had half a cup of yogurt with shredded carrots and nuts and half a nature's valley peanut butter bar, and coffee, of course :P
The rest of the day went well. I owed a girl some money and I was without cash after I went to pay her.
I have a new career coordinator-conselour. He is one of my best teachers, so I'm hoping he'll do a good job!
I had to go to the store and buy some stuff but since I was sans money after I payed my debts, I had to go to the bank too. The line was HUGE and I everyone was having trouble with the ATM. The boy called me when I was trying to get my money out. I was in a bad mood and I wasn't too kind.
I bought the stuff I needed and I also bought banana chips, cashews and a green apple. I devour it all and I wasn't even hungry!!!
I got home and I ate lunch. I had another salad like the one I had last night, some watermelon and iced coffee. (I guess the caffeine isn't doing anything to help me deal with my nerves!!)
I snacked all afternoon. I wasn't even hungry! I was eating out of pure anxiety and boredom. God help me. I had one of the most delicious things, so it isn't all lost.

I had this awesome coconut, pecan and raisin bar. (Made in Mexico of course)
Close up:

The ingredient list is short and sweet.

It was worth every single bite. :)

Still, I hate to eat when I'm not hungry. It's a sin. It's a bad habit. It's not okay!! I need to find things to relieve my anxiety and help me deal with stress. Any tips???
So anyway, I tried to run but my knees and ankles hurted and I stopped after 35 minutes. I walked for another 25 minutes. It was okay, but I was hoping for a long, long run.

In the end, we didn't go to the movies because he had work. We are going out tomorrow, possibly, but I don't know cuz my sister's boyfriend and his family are coming over for lunch, and my bf can only get away from work at 3. I hope to see him. I want to see him but at the same time I'm afraid. I think he's expecting me to have all my issues worked out by now. How can i do that???I wish I could, not only for his sake, but it's not that fucking easy. It has taken me a lot of work to get where I am right now. And he's asking me to move forward? How? Perhaps I should tell him about all my struggles. Maybe if he knew my story he could see that it's not that I don't trust him or that I hate myself, is just that there are issues I've had all of my life but I'm slowly working out. He has been of tremendous help, even if he has no idea!!! I wish I could tell him that.

I had a huge bowl of special k with cantaloupe, apple and granola. Weird, and again, I ate too much.

I have a 5 day break from school!!! yipeeeeey!!!!!!!! I feel like such a control freak but I actually made a to-do list of things I want to get done before the break is over.

Finish homework.
At least 5 workouts.
Get manicure and pedicure.
Get a hair cut (only the split-ends)
Do all the week's laundry.
Go out with my friends!!!!
Go to my therapist to discuss some shiz. (For the record, I don't go to my psyc on a regular basis, just when I have some things to straighten out)
Meditate.
Finish a painting course I was soing online.
Do a dream-board.
At least 2 driving lessons.
Figure out the stuff with my bf.

I really need to calm down. Take a big breath and realize I'm maybe overreacting over everything. I've had a stressful week at school, i'm on that time of the month, I need to chill the eff out, and remember that things will work out one way or another. They always do. If I stress out too much I'm only making everything worse. :)
How I wish I was at the beach right now!!!!

How about you honey buns? Where would you like to be right now? Have a nice weekend, wherever you are! =D

Oh by the way!! Blogger effed up with my pages at the top of the blog. Can you please try to click on the About me or Welcome sections and see if it gets you there? Let me know If you can't do it, and I'll try to straight it out!

relationship advice needed!

2010-04-29T17:08:00.000-07:00

Today I decided to take some of you guys advice, and have a good breakfast instead of my usual coffee to see how my appetite reacted.
So I had a veggie and avocado burrito on a whole wheat tortilla, coffee and a Nature's Valley Peanut Butter bar. It was very good! I liked the very short ingredient list and it was yummy! I didn't like was the 11 gr of sugar though.

I confess I haven't had any kind of bar in like a year or so. It was a "fear food" but I read the ingredient list and I was like "mmm i have oats, i eat peanut butter, what's the big deal?" It was worth it but I missed my fresh fruit!

For lunch I had a zucchini soup my mom made, a can of tuna and a very huge, juicy mango! My appetite is the same though. No more, no less. It's the last time I force myself to have a big breakfast!

Yesterday after I posted, I went out with my boyfriend and it was so weird. He was very serious and didn't talk. He just drove around not speaking and it felt so odd. So today we talked and he said he was serious because I've been acting weird. He said I'm a very insecure person and that it's hard to love someone who doesn't love herself. I guess he is right but what does he expect me to do? Those are issues I've had my whole life and they are not going to get fixed in a day! He also said that we've been together for 6 months and so far he had tell me everything about his life and his past and he doesn't know anything about me. I don't know what does he want to know? I mean if he wants to know something about me why not ask? We are going to take some time off. I hate that. I feel like we are breaking up.He told me I should think about if I want to be with him and really trust him and that I should figure out my issues. I'm so sad. I've had insecurities all my life and I don't know what I'm supposed to do to convince him that I do trust him.
Right now, I'm trying very hard to fight the urge to stay in my bedroom and don't go downstairs and devour the kitchen in an anxiety-ridden binge attack.

That's it for today girlies. I'm sad and I have a lot of school work. I want to go out and run my stress away but I don't know if I'll have time.

Do you have any good relationship advice? I'm desperate!!!

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edit: Oh great, I changed my URL and blogger erased all my past comments!